bot tis notes holder frm bugis village, sourced frm thailand... e mind teaser's 2 place e notes on it, close n open it frm e other side n its 'strapped' on... WAH!!! so intriguin n u cant pull it apart yet dunno how its done... so e 3 of us bot 1 each hahaha ^_^ e 1 on e left's kbkb's aka kelvin, mid's mine n rite's kk's w synthetic leather...

e mini jap steamboat 4 2 @ e nasi lemak @ liang seah st [opp parco] ^_^ e soup's refreshin n e paper doesnt burn or tear w e soup; amazin rite? [i noe waraku @ ms & 吉 ji @ capitol ve sumthin lk tt] they r oso sellin self made soya bean milk n curd; v NICE!!! not v sweet n v smooth ^_^ try it if u go there, tink its called e.w or sumthin... located opp beavers o_0

internet & bloggin security...

xiaxue's blog got hacked on wed n its e 1st blog hackin case tt i heard of... heard of pples frenster gettin hacked, includin mine last yr but blogs!!! tts e 1st... she's 1st in most stuff in e bloggin realm... includin hackin...

i noe shes loudmouthed n crude but her blog isnt all tt wrong... she has e freedom 2 write wat she 1s, isnt e sg gov promotin freedom of speech n encouragin pple 2 SPEAK UP??? so wats e big deal abt her bloggin it?

internet = vast pool of informatN available 4 pple 2 view n discuss... pple can create, view, modify n discuss; isnt tt y e internet's created? 4 beta comm between pple of e 5 continents? when a content's posted, theres bound 2 b pple either lkin, dislkin or neutral abt it...

definitN of a blog:
a public web site where users post informal journals of their thoughts, comments, and philosophies, updated frequently and normally reflecting the views of the blog's creator.
more definitNs by google

since bloggin's abt personal views n viewers ve diff views there'll b +ve n -ve comments... as e owner of e content, its up 2 him/her 2 accept, take it as it is or b damn pissed by it... but tink again, they r posted by pple u dunno y b bothered by em? 庸人自擾; create problems n stress 4 urself, STUPID RITE??? but den again theres no waves w/o wind 無風不起浪, if there r -ve comments, theres definitely sumthin goin on... althou there r sum pple who r damn bored 2 spam pple's blog, sum tt r not, they r juz keyin down wat they tink abt it...

if a blog has a [chatter/tag] board or comments functN, it means tt its open 4 browsers 2 type comments rite? if u dun 1 ani1 2 post on ur blog, disable em...
ITS JUZ TT DAMN EZ!!!

back 2 e hack, no mata how 'bad' xiaxue's theres no nid 2 HACK in2 her email n blog rite... hackin's an internet commercial crime n can b traced by ips; althou isps r bound not 2 reveal subscribers info but cops stil ve their authority 2 do so... imagine all e contacts n blog posts all GONE!!! if its me i'll go nuts, not 2 mentN her...

commentin +ve or -ve stuffs on pples blog = freedom of speech n can b deleted by e owner as he lks; i comment too, +vely n -vely; but NO 2 hackin n intrusN of privacy... email spammin isnt an intrusN; its an IRRITANT!!!

rmb tt an internet published blog's open 2 e whole of e internet community n populatN viewin n commentin [if appliable], wateva pple comment +ve or -ve, take em as they r; read n throw... if u reali mind it so much, delete e comments den... ITS JUZ TT EZ

e same goes 2 bein an assertive human... dun xpect pple 2 give in 2 u all e time coz u r not a t-rex... 天天吃大魚大肉也會膩, 偶爾吃點青菜豆腐也不錯... dun let -ve comments drown u, lk its armageddon; no 1 dies of another man's words... but 2 sum it juz falls on deaf ears; 忠言逆耳... success'll blind a person's hart, mind n eyes; oblivious 2 e truth n facts, makin him unbearable [commonly seen in tv dramas]...

my post contents ve no structure or linkage 2 wats written, but i lk it n tts my style... every1 shld live 4 himself n ve his own style... life isnt abt livin 4 others n changin 2 suit em; its abt CO-XISTIN... learn 2 give n take... not everythin can b measured, sum cant b...

4 those who dunno whos xiaxue, she's over here --> e infamous sg blog celeb: 下雪

tis 570 words post took me 1 hr 2 type... tink im detoriatin liao... sigh~

e aftermath

my fractured crooked finger
















e conditN of my hand; c how crookeds e finger

went 4 review juz now... met joe n he sent me there [thx ^_^]... e x-ray report showed nothin wrong w e skull [^_^] but e left ring finger ve a misplaced fracture @ e tip joint... doc says it'll prob take 3 wks 2 heal... head bump went down alot liao thou its stil quite BIG -_-" hope after a few more daes it'll b gone... abrasions r healin slow... stil cant sit or lie back properly coz of e back abrasion & big bruise... but overall its fine... gettin beta n not worse... goin back on e 29th 4 review n x-ray of e hand again...

van banged...

start track: lush995

cabbed down 2 e gym n there was a massive jam frm fort rd til dunno ware coz of an event @ marina cove... got off near big splash... n walked past e snail cars... walked 2 e mid of 2 lanes in front of e gym, waitin 2 x over...

saw a van frm afar tt wldnt hit me if ran... juz 1 more step n it appeared in front of me; hitin my left shoulder n me down 2 bang my head... e driver came out n helped me up, sayin tt he didnt c me [when i saw him]; followed by e guys in e gym... joe took down his particulars n there was a v BIG bump on e left of my head + abrasNs on e left hand, leg n back...

off 2 eastshore hospital a&e; waited 4 e doc n went 4 2 head n hand x-rays... theres a line @ e bottom; dunno wats tt... but my left ring finger tip joint has a fracture ~argh~; meanin there mayb stiffness or other side effects in future T_T no trainin n writin 4 3 wks... lucky im on holidae n not havin xams else -_-" liao...

bandaged my head, did a buddy splint on my 2 left fingers 2 immobilize e ring finger, did dressin on e open wounds n 1 tetanus jab...

went 2 make a police report... our tinkin's tt im wearin white so e driver cant b didnt c me n i gauged tt e van wont reach me tts y i ran over... tink he sped up coz he didnt 'c' me n cldnt brake in time [prob's clutch+ brake or juz release acc pedal; rather den juz do e-brake]... but aniwae under heavy traffic drivers shld go slow even if e lane's quite free coz on 2 way lanes pple tend 2 cut lanes...

so tired yet cant rest well... all injuries r painin... its disasterous... cant write, wk n train... typin w e rite hand n left index finger... cant lie n sit well... cant eat even since i cant hold e spoon or fork properly... juz as gd as crippled...

thx joe 4 sendin me 2 e esh, npp n hm, brenda 4 comin down n others tt helped, asked n toked 2 me...

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e necromaner...

went 2 balestier shaw centre w joe n joy 2 watch e necromaner, a thai movie abt black magixs n supernatural powers... seems tt their tattoos enable em 2 b inpenetrable 2 bullets n knives... But once it vanishes or loses e powers u r doomed... its abt cops usin black magix 2 battle n counter each other... its a gory n bloody movie but not as bad as final destinatN 2... as 4 e cinema, its was damn cold; was ctrlin my sneeze coz once it starts, theres no end 2 it...













b4 tt we had chix rice at tis loy kee best chix rice... so it ve 2 b BEST by rite but e food's quite ok; dunno wats e best abt... joe ordered innards, chix, beansprouts n 2 eggs... e thing abt em's tt they said no roasted chix legs but there were 8 chix w 16 legs... -_-"

on e way there, there was a massive jam 2wards changi airport n a 38-resulted mild jam on our side on e pie... tink it was a 4 cars bang... e jam was so long tt it stretched beyond bendemeer til dunno ware, lucky tt im not at tp liao else die liao...

muay thai lvl3 #14

start track: lush995

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, tech spar, 1.5x spar w joy, 2x spar w cheryl, 60 pumps n 20 crunches [didnt finish due 2 a call]...

tech spar:
knee vs elbow push+x
left blk+rite hi push+left kick vs rite kick+rite blk
left blk+rite hi push+left knee vs rite kick+rite elbow push

didnt train on mon n tues + im 'pukin red' so 2dae's trainin wasnt optimal; it was XHAUSTIN!!! but stil survived w 1 100+ n 1/2 cup of h20...

end track: lush995

sem 1 results...

results r out n mine terribly SUX!!! tis time round... T_T reasons bein im xtremely bz tis sem... drivin n wk [xcuses but true]... e real reason bein:

I WAS JUZ TOO SLACKY ARROGANT!!! + LAZY!!!

after havin hds n ds e prev sem... i kinda slacked off... @ least i ve 333 as my comforter -_-" but den again 325's juz damn borin tt frm e bginnin til e end we stil dunno a fuck abt it.... 211 was slightly beta but my corked up brain's juz not meant 4 programmin... all e suxy ideas blocked it up n depleted my time... while e best solutions lited up @ e last mins when im so brain dead liao... T_T

i noe they r juz xcuses n theres not point whinin [not whinin thou]... next sem's my last in studyin so shall make full use of it by studyin n playin hard ^_^

e 9 commandments
#1 thou shalt not b slacky next sem...
#2 thou shalt not give up ezily...
#3 thou shalt not b lazy...
#4 thou shalt ve beta time management...
#5 thou shalt ve beta $ management...
#6 thou shalt ve determinatN n endurance...
#7 thou shalt noe e true meanin of 'wk n play hard'...
#8 thou shalt noe how 2 b an intelligent slacker...
#9 thou shalt noe tt there r not shortcuts e hd grades...

e 1st ever tauhuey i ate... bot by joy ^_^ i nv liked it 4 no reason but i like 2 drink it -_-" stil i was 1/2 sian after eatin part of it; finished it thou... thx joy ^_^

e manual wrx of rat tt sent me cruisin frm big splash til dhoby ghaut ^_^ can feel e effects of it spdin thru ecp; juz lk nfs *_* I JUZ LUV IT!!!

muay thai lvl3 #13

start track: lush995

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x padwk n bagwk alt, 2x spar w joy, 2x spar w cheryl... n im soaked thru... its reali more xhaustin den my 1 hr blade + 1 hr trainin...

was hit mani x by joy [as usual] but w cheryl hit her a few x but e funny thing was tt we were kickin @ e same side; her left kick n my rite kick n vice versa... alot of gapplin w side knees n blocks n throws...

tink althou im trainin more now but e stamina improvement isnt tt much coz im stil quite ko durin n after trainin... tink ve 2 blade harder n faster liao... 4get abt e falls...

gona ve massive muscle aches n bruises when i wake up... e statement's false coz i woke up not feelin tt way

end track: lush995

1st ecp blade

bladed frm big splash til fort rd end... quite smooth but stil buanged 2x 2 n fro... 1st grazed e left knee n 2nd nearly e rite... spent 1 hr on tt althou dunno wats e dist but its stil quite long 4 my 1st...

juz trained... xhaustin... no left push kicks n knees coz e left knee's grazed... but oso sweated alot more den my blade...

continuin tmr... down til e other end @ e sailin club... more harzardous, longer n xhaustin...

ever saw sucha BIG cockroach???!!! imagine if its tis BIG...

sin of gluttony

start track: lush995

had dinner late after 2100 [alreadi fattenin liao].. rice+sambal small prawns+fish cake+long beans... after tt was supper w joe, joy n rat @ e hawker... supper was chix wing, sambal sotong n stingray, tauhu goreng n clam [didnt eat tt althou its quite cooked] after tt joe sent me back; actuali can take mrt back but if i miz e nel den... heheh...

its quite sinnin 2 eat sucha full supper which's lk bingin on alot of food tts yummy yet gona bloat... its a gd treat thou thx ^_^ tmr onwards ve 2 train harder liao... even joe has 2... wonder wat x i'll zzz coz havin 2 cups of grn t...

罪過... 罪過...
shall cut down my intake... n train harder... ganbatte!!!

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muay thai lvl3 #12

start track: lush995

2dae's trainin's joy, cheryl, me n my muscle aches... skip, warmup, 1x shadow, 3x bagwk, 1/2 hr tech spar, 2x spar w cheryl, 1x spar w joy, 50 pumps n 50 crunches...

tech spar
hi leg blk vs low kick
hi leg blk+side push kick vs rite kick
jab vs thigh push kick
kick tap+rite kick/left low kick vs rite/push kick
n a few others...

after tt was e spars... cheryl's faster althou managed 2 kick n hit back but its xhaustin... w joy was another thing... coz he's injured n his form went down coz when i push kicked him, his abs werent as solid as e prev trainin... but den was stil whacked n even mizzed e push kicks w him standin there 4 me openly wahaha... did sum leg grabbin thou not v well...

joe n joy ate my nemesis; e DURIAN!!! b4 we left argh!!! but @ least its not in e gym but elseware else i wld ve ko~ed long ago liao... >_<

n its oni 1 wk of my break n im...

SO DAMN BORED!!!

liao mon's trainin left me w 2 achin calves... bladin was slow but quite steadily... improvements on e way... ganbatte...

pple r contradictin; when they r bz lk shit they 1 breaks, when they ve breaks they find it borin... borin coz they ve nothin 2 do... ive things 2 do but im strapped financially n physically... theres nothin 2 blog coz theres nothin entertain or worthy 2 blog... sian... -_-"

end track: lush995

tp busted n flunked...

now waitin 4 e test... juz now was quite gd althou mount kerb once but everythin else was quite smooth... hope e tester wont b a bao gong but lk wat they say u steady, look left, rite, front, back, mirrors can liao... as long as i dun die in e circuit dun tink'll flunk... wishin, hopin n prayin...

ok e moment of truth...

i died in e circuit

due 2 nervousity...
banged down e parallel pole, striked e kerb 6x n a few other minors totalin 60 demerit points + 1 flunk... oni perfect was vertical parkin [next time find me a carpark w tt slot] wahaha but e tester was quite nice; he told me how 2 do but there were sum tt had no pts deductN 4 e 1st time but stil i busted... next tp on 010905 til den'll b bangin on my parallel parkin n circuit...

thx 2 those who wished me... sorry tt i busted+flunked...

drivin prac #18 + 325

start track: lush995

e moment i opened e car door i sensed my nemesis... e DURIAN!!! ARGH!!!~ko~ he bot n left em in e boot >_< aniwae its e 2nd last time in2 e circuit... 2dae was quite gd; no kerb mountin, parkin n dir change were quite gd xcept 4 e slope tt i nearly rolled down...

was honked in e circuit by a corolla n a cefiro on e rd n a vios cut my path 2 move rite kns~ but overall was quite gd 2dae hope it'll b beta tmr...

325 was a disaster... abt 1.5 hr lata i was stil @ q1 so i fasten up n kept on writin lk a crazy writer... e funniest thing's tt e cover pg typed 'closed bk xam' n we were lk 'siao lor... e bks r thick enuf 2 b a pillow n its closed bk?' but aniwae we continued w e notes n tink most of em cited off e bks itselves... no gd... had oni 2 pgs coz theres nothin 2 write frm e bks [wonder how they got 9 pgs ?_?] so juz bluf my way thru...

hope 2 get @ least d 4 all 3... so damn tired... yet so xcited abt tmr's tp!!!

end track: lush995

msn ghost @ bxg? its not me nor joe... spooky...

muay thai lvl3 #11

start track: lush995

2 dae's trainin's JOY again, scary... skipped, warmup, shadow, bagwk & padwk alt, tech spar, 2x spar w cheryl, 1x spar w joy, 50 pumps n 50 crunches...

tech spar:
rite kick vs grab+push fwd w rite leg+left kick
kick+left in-blk+ rite in-blk vs dodge+rite kick+left kick
jab+x+rite blk+rite kick [land fwd]+rite jab+left kick
grab+knee
push kick+kick
n a few more others...

tink 1 wk of no trainin [by joy but actual's 2 wks didnt train includin sat coz too tired] reali pulled my form down... so tired... lk goin 2 ko >_<

end track: lush995

211

start track: lush995

ytd
went 2 mit kk 2 pay her bill den cine 2 eat... after tt 2 ps n nua w ah gal... nite 2 partyworld w kk's 3 frenz, ah gal n seth...

2dae
back hm @ 0015 n tio gan fuck lar... been bz 4 mths go out late 1 nite kb? 4 wat!!! did e 211 tips til 0400... woke @ 1220 n cont doin... 211 frm 1400~1700; was alittle stuck but w e tips it was quite smooth + rmbed most of em coz did less than 12 hrs ago... althou 'devil' came 2 tempt but 'angel' shot him off... dinner w em @ peninsula n went 2 cine w nathan 2 job hunt but he ve v low chance of it...

aniwae 1 paper's done leavin 1 more... e v borin n mono 325 -_-"

end track: lush995

drivin prac #17

start track: lush995

back in2 e circuit... pacin's beta but mounted e kerb x times [immediate failure], didnt stop @ e signs n lines [oso immediate failure], rollin backwards 1m< on e slope [another immediate failure] n not lookin when reversin while parkin [-4 each x]... tink im 鬥雞眼; cant c if my parkin's str8 thou i tink its str8 wahaha but overall its not bad...

juz 1 more wk 2 tp... n fees r pilin up... omg $ $ wru!!! *ko* >_<

end track: lush995

1 last...

finali e last assignment 4 tis sem n its oso e biggest n xhaustin; a dynamic website w/o a db, oni plain txt files 2 mock as a db...

its crazy yet xtremely challengin at e same time... ve tons of ideas waitin 2 realize w loads of codin n testin 2 b done... summore i dun ve e flair 4 programmin tts y i gave up on my other programmin assignments back den... but 4 tis really hope 2 perfect it coz i noe its possible... usin my oh so ingenious yet tormentin 'time force me 2 wk' mentality 2 push my limits n 2 provide myself a perfect xcuse if its stil incompleted in e end... howeva im quite determined not 2 let e devil gets its way by goin all out 2 chiong thru it... nvm if i 1 2 zzz, i can do tt after fri... afterall im e renowned zzz god...

after not zzz its stil buggy... xhausted 2 do it liao... shall seek help...

boxing cabaret @ e esplanade

whether u r a muaythai f(r)antic, gay/les or str8, or juz sum1 who ve watched 'beautiful boxer' last yr; tis's e LIVE ver of it playin @ e esplanade tis fri n sat ^_^ go watch it if it interests u; definitely more REAL (in many aspects) w nong toom playin HERSELF LIVE!!!

drivin prac #16

went in e circuit again... tis time its bad... wasnt ctrlin my spd it juz went faster n faster, bangin e kerb... too tired 2 ctrl juz 1 2 drive thru... after tt was e long 4gotten vertical parkin which alot ezier den parallel but stil countless mistakes like knockin down e poles n unable 2 get in coz too slow 2 steer or too close 2 e poles... 1 more hr on tt n tts it...

was asked by e reg 'u didnt train 2dae?' didnt coz too tired tt i didnt 1 2 go 2 wk (which brenda said i actually cld haha) n 2 conserve energy 4 e prac... 4got my handwraps so not in e mood 2 train as well... its strange w/o em w hands rollercoasterin e gloves... n stinkin after tt, its a killer not as fatal as durians thou...

nid my long lost 12 hrs marathon zzz 2nite... havent had tt 4 a v long time... tink not tis yr yet... zzz ko

333 down

start track: beyond - paradize

finali 333's over n done w... can draw outta my list... didnt zzz til 0800+ 2dae 2 complete e docs editin, final doc n send em out 4 printin... tink i totalli ko~ed coz even w e pacman tone @ its loudest i stil zzz thru it... awake @ 1230 2 cont doin, gettin e full ver, burnin, printin n off i run 2 sch 2 conclude it... @ 1600... @ 1700 its COMPLETE/CLOSED/CONCLUDED n OVER!!! yeah~ 1 thing off...

total proj phase's abt 2.5 mths, outta which plannin took 1.5, leavin 1 mth 2 implement/develop it... history has repeated itself... in a grp, oni a couple r doin e actual wk... in tp it was 2.5/4; here's 2/5 w nathan replacin leo n rizal = iris+nelly+rory... my role n wk done remained omost e same; doin wat i can technically n documentin... e presentatN was juz e same back den...

M.O.N.O S.I.A.N.E.R.I.S.M

but aniwae its done liao so nvm... xpected grade 2 b D [of a diff rank]

leavin next wk's 325 4 journals & 211 php n 2 wks later's 211 n 325 xams, endin w my long awaited tp... den its quits 4 me...

end track: 南拳媽媽 - 瓦解

muay thai lvl3 #10

start track: black eyed peas - dun phunk w my hart

2dae trainin's cheryl, me n... JOY!!!

skippin [seemed longer den b4], shadow [seemed shorter den b4], 3x bag n padwk alt, tech spar, 2x JOY VS JOY, 1x JOY VS CHERYL, 50 pumps n 50 crunches...

tech spar:
hand blk+knee
hand blk+out blk
hand blk+kick

as 4 e JOY VS JOY spars can oni say tt im whacked but tink there were times ware i cld hit back w other techs but they didnt appear... den w cheryl was abt e same...

rmbed writin on sat 'mayb 1 dae i'll get 2 train w joy...' n it came true 2dae haha m i a psychic?

end track: akon - my style

state of my rm b4 n after; left n rite... a big diff i made in mins n its vola!!! oni 2 last 4 daes til rite u-turns back 2 left

drivin prac #15

start track: lush995

1st time in e circuit doin dir change, s & crank coz, up n down slopes, parallel parkin... after tt was cruisin @ <= 70 kmph til 國老 asked me 2 slow down... beat 2 lites thou coz was too fast n late 2 brake; braked @ 1 thou tt threw stuffs down...

b4 tt...
was @ e gym since 12 n joy's finali back!!! saw his fight n pt trainins n he's reali a power hobbit [not tt he's short; he's juz small sized weighin 50 kg!!!] he threw 3 of em after they failed 2 gap him properly... w juz sum twistin n turnin off they flew n landed on e ring... N I MEAN REAL FLYIN!!! partial due 2 loss of balance but its a well known fact tt he can throw n whack sum1 20 kg heavier den him n ive seen it 4 myself 2dae... tink im kinda lucky not 2 b trained by him coz even w joe im x_x liao... mayb 1 dae i'll get 2 train w joy...

after tt...
a wait @ e bus stop, a long dozed journey back on 51, a jam back hm on 851

end track: lush995

pepsi lime ver of frenster

abt mutitaskin

start track: jacky cheung - blue moon

i may b able 2 multitask @ certain things; tv/hp/games/eat/drink
but im definitely not good @ time, cost n multitask management 4 schwk
judgin frm e start of e yr til now, its visible tt i sux @ tt
especially jugglin 211 n 333; bangin on1 n neglectin e other
omg when'll it end???
[actually in 2 wks time haha hehehehehe]

end track: black eyed peas - dun phunk w my hart

drivin prac #14

drove 4 1.5 hrs, cruised up 2 60 kmph, u-turnin, changin lanes, shiftin gears; all e usual stuffs n those tt may help me pass e test... lookin fwd 2 sat nite's circuit n parkin again...

dinner @ terra; sirloin steak, large choco milkshake [doesnt taste fab but its juz diff] n e choco chip ice cream which overfilled me n puked out 1/2 of e milkshake after tt >_<

drivin prac #13

start track: lush995

2nite's parallel parkin n im a mess w/o 國老 next 2 me haha kip bangin in2 poles... after tt was cruisin up 2 gear 4, changin lanes, doin u-turns, turnin, up n down slopes... next'll b cruisin n parkin in e broad daelite; more free in e dae den nite n now im faster liao so dun ve 2 spend alot of time parkin... after tt's circuit n cruisin on sat... den w lotsa prac comes w $ flyin... but nvm short term broke~ness's beta den long time sufferin ^_^

countin down 2 240605 14:45... 4 e moment of truth...

end track: lush995

in juz 24 daes...

start track: lush995

finally e xam schedule's out:
211 @ 200605 1400
325 @ 230605 0930

n it didnt clash w my tp ~phew~ but w muaythai n wk; well tt can b settled quite ezily...
den its...
HOLIDAE!!! MY LONG AWAITED 1+ MTH HOLIDAE!!!
end track: lush995

wata dae... ~ko~

start track: lush995

went 2 aljunied 2 mit e 'potential' buyer of lynn's 7270; a green couple tt commented tt e hp's BAD 4 a 2 mths old coz e keypad's 'SCRATCHED' which 2 me its v minimal n 'invisible' under tt kinda litin... aniwae they didnt buy n stil smilinly tell me 'sorry 2 make u come all e way'... another buyer 1s me 2 go all e way 2 JURONG!!! where lynn stays -_-" he/she die? oso dun 1 2 go central so 4get it... wtf pple r so fussy; true tt clams change covers x but pple ve fingernails cfm'll scratch alittle 1 mah [as thou e green couple dun ve -_-"] n it wont kill 2 travel 2 sumware centralized; dun SELLERS ve e PRIORITY 2 fix dealin locs???!!!
so ani1 lookin 4 7270 contact me thx

after tt got e stuffs frm lynn den went 2 kk's place 2 fix her sis's pc 4 8 HRS!!! n its stil down... 4mattin failed 1 by 1; ntfs -> fat -> ntfs quick -> fat quick all cant... omg... suspect its e hd hw failure coz b4 tt it was already rebootin endlessly n formattin died @ 25/30%; even e cdrom's cronkin up by not 'refreshin' when discs are changed... wah lao eh can die ar... hope its not down by me else X_X by her sis liao... forced myself not 2 zzz so tt can wake @ 0400 [of coz i zzz there again wahaha im sucha DEVIL!!!] 2 try again so read 16 bks of shaman king whilst drippin due 2 my oh-so-bluved cat allergy T_T

end track: lush995

new hps glam

start track: lush995

wk, trained, ate brenda's spag [dunno where it went after 1/2 hr -_-"], met kk, lynn n jasz @ ps... when i reached they were @ best lookin @ HPS!!! lynn was eyein e 3230 n jasz, e 6230I [both my ideal hps] after tt went 2 paragon m1 2 change lynn's outdated sim card den dinner @ cine where i 'childishly', 'kiddiely' 1 2 take cam w e madagascar head boards n it was juz nice 4 e 4 of us but im e oni 1 posin as alex T_T den we left liao... earlier in e dae they went 2 far east ms 2 get my m900 4 me @ $398 wah lao eh so damn cheap lor [as compared 2 abt 1 mth ago @ $450<] + unfilled warr ^_^

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me as madagascar's alex w e 'bheaded' animalz...

e 2 hps in my posessN now; lynn's 7270 4 sale n my 'recovered n'll b treasured/cherished/luved' m900

1st nite out...

start track: internet power98 - am jam

okasan oni left 4 1 dae n i...

didnt come hm last nite after wk; instead went 2 kk's place ate her mum's fried rice & chix tonic soup den zzz there on e upper bunk bed... tot i wont b able 2 zzz due 2 ollie's meowin all e nite n e radio bein quite loud... saw okasan's msg @ 0130 [its 260505 1030 over there; imagine flyin 4 hrs n its stil e 'same dae' tink i'll go nuts] den sumhow managed 2 doze off den awake @ 0600 @ e retro ufm1003 am show n ollie, e alarm clock... after tt did sum stuffs den outta e hse 2 clarke quay mac [1st time there haha on e couch summore haha] 4 breakfast den back hm...

saw a calico cat @ clarke quay but i cant cam it T_T
I MUZ VE A CAM HP ASAP ELSE I'LL GO NUTS W/O CAMMIN CATZ!!!

end track: internet power98 - am jam

ARGH!! I HATE PROGRAMMIN!!!

start track: leann rimes - cant fight e moonlite @ power98

been bangin on 211 4 a few daes but stil stuck @ e baxic functions; login cases not reali wkin, sum layouts dun appear e way they shld but dunno y coz on e pc its fine but when uploaded it turns in2 sumthin else... validatN not done yet, static layout not up... blah~ tts y i FUCKIN HATE PROGRAMMIN!!! it juz saps my brain cells endlessly w little progress... i dun ve much patience so my dear codes n pgs pls wk 4 me!!! omg im gona ko ani moment liao...

okasan left 4 vancouver @ 0600 liao tink now she's on e flight there after leavin tw @ 1400... e time diff's 15 hrs so meanin she'll reach there @ 0900 [vancouver time] when its 0000 here -_-" if its me i'll zzz in e plane den do anithin else but 10+ hrs on e plane tink i'll go CRAZY!!! no pc, no internet, no cats, no cam, no muaythai... ARGH!!! aniwae e whole hse'll b mine til next sun 1700 wahaha but dun tink'll b havoc~kin coz ve loads, tons & mountains of WK 2 b done -_-" tink im rather nasty 2 her coz e moment she left, i put on my devil horns n b my '小魔怪', cropped my hair [dunno how i looks lk @ e back] n bleached my hair ash gold-brown [took me e whole bottle of gatsby 'natural bleach' & 1+ hr coz my hair's juz too STUBBORNLY HEALTHY 2 'absorb' e color] but im rather ^_^ w e effects n hope it'll last longer tis time...

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muay thai lvl3 #9

start track: lush995

2dae's cheryl n me... skipped, warmed, shadow, 3/4x bag & padwk alt, 3 spars, 50 pumps & crunches...

2dae's spars were SO DAMN GD ^_^
1st round was e 'warm up' round, 2nd round was faster n we gappled but i was thrown -_-" but e last round was e most INTENSE WHACKIN HERE THERE EVERYWARE!!! especially e last 10 secs when we whacked each other lk nobody's biz wahaha

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問世間情為何物???
只叫人傷身, 傷神, 又傷心...

現在不是戀愛的季節...
而是傷心的季節...

怪不得我從不戀愛...
好可怕... 好恐怖...

drivin prac #12

start track: lush995

its been XACTLY 1 MTH since i last drove coz no $ & time... n XACTLY 1 MTH 2 my tp... countin down liao...

aniwae did parallel parkin 4 abt 1.5 hrs; it was said 2 b more diff den vertical parkin but my diff was tt i cldnt reali c e rear coz e seat cushN was blkin my view -_-" overall it went quite well thou ve 2 prac a few more times coz it ve 2 b done in 5 mins & vertical parkin in 3 mins durin tp else its IMMEDIATE FAIL [now u noe y sg economy boomin??? coz gov drivin schs earn alot mah] -_-" >_< after tt was cruisin ard 4 1/2 hr den end liao so far so gd hehe... @ least i didnt 4got everythin haha...

end track: lush995

finali found a fellow cat cammer ~yeah~

start track: lush995

was walkin 2 sls after sch ytd, passed by e lane next 2 tis fashion n there was tis guy cammin a tabby cat... WAH!!! FINALI GOT SUM1 LK ME LIAO; LK 2 CAM CATZ WAHAHAHA seein him cam makes me feel T_T coz I DUN VE A CAM HP NOW!!! [thx 2 tt blardi black pot ass mr 'J'!!!] n tis's e 1st time i saw tt cat!!! meanin e next time i go back he may not b there liao T_T tts y i luv cammin cats coz u nv noe where n when they come n go n tt CAM HPS R E BEST INVENTnS coz we carry em every n aniware we go... but aniwae tt cat brushed against n meowed me w tt guy sittin there lookin haha...

saw a 'zzz' on my frenster juz now n was tinkin who it was til i saw e links; its jc... tink he's hibernatin sumware coz his profile's so plain n mono...

was @ kk's place juz now n after dinner while walkin back there was tis bikin uncle tt kept ringin his bell so we gave him 1/2 of e lane but he stil kept ringin so after he passed us, i threw a push kick [tts cfm cant hit him coz he's outta e range] den e FUNNY THING happened: he kinda lost his balance & bgan wobblin so we were sayin tt 'MUAYTHAI actually ve 氣功 'embedded' in it tt can hit invisibly' or rather tts 'ah joy's 無影腳' [even beta den 黃飛鴻's coz his nid 2 hit but mine dun hit oso can] wahahahaha coz e uncle was quite stead til e kick tt he wobbled... hahahahaha

end track: lush995

im a dead rat tis time...

start track: lush995

lookin @ my 211 assignment 2 specs... realized tt its MISSION IMPOSSIBLE 2 complete if i dun get FUCKIN STARTED rite now!!! T_T coz it due in wk 13/2nd wk of june [0506~1006]!!!

tot it was sumthin small & havin e god damn 'shld b quite simple 2 do' & 'anithin stil ve mr S 2 help' mentalities... but its stil MI coz theres juz too much thing 2 do...
OMG!!! SUM1 EITHER HELP OR KILL ME!!!
i dun 1 a C in my transcripts...

e god damn assignment 2 specs
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muay thai lvl3 #8

2dae's trainin's lena & me... did padwk & bagwk alt den 2 spars w her & 1 spar w joe ~yeah~ was hit x times on e left leg by her n of coz hit xx times by joe althou there was sum techniq durin e spar but i seemed 2 ve 4gotten tt i can knee/push/kick him @ e close range; oni tot of punchin him on e abs instead of e face -_-" after e 1st spar w her, it was her vs joe n i saw e diff btwn e 3 of us juz lk a food chain...
joe -eat-> lena -eat-> me

but i tink i improved x amt on my sparrin thou my techniq individually r stil not tt gd [push kick & knee r not hard enuf coz i alwaz end up flyin T_T] but aniwae...

I LUV MUAYTHAI!!!
& nv regretted takin it thou i was injured x times durin tis period ^_^

Affect

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions. It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love wasnt ever mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this: Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart.

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all. Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

In short, Have Faith. Love will always find a way if you believe in it. Avoiding your fears merely makes them stronger. Embrace them and you will see that they are nothing more than mere figments of your imagination. U've to be fair to the person who loves u, if you love him/her, you've got to tell him/her!

taken off my frenster bulletin board posted by 1 of my frenz

hapi bufdae 2 ME!!!

start track: lush995

went 2 make e police report @ 1415 n there til 1700; 2.75 hrs!!! so tirin... but aniwae its done liao... althou i noe chances of me gettin my stuffz back = 0 but hopefully they can find him or watsoeva... juz let tis horrible nitemare pass...

didnt go 4 325; doubt ani1 did -_-"

back @ e gym now til 2200+

tis's how my 21st [oh so impt] bufdae's done
thx 2 those tt msged me on & offline ^_^

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muay thai lvl3 #7

start track: lush995

2dae's trainin was juz so GOOD!!!
IM LUVIN IT!!! ~YEAH~

cheryl, lena n me trained... had skippin, warmup & shadow [e usuals] den techniq shadow, bagwk, techniq bagwk [where e knee~lin 'tore' e skin off my buanged left knee; now its so raw >_<] after tt was sparrin w cheryl n we hit each other x times, den padwk w joe [lucki no more left knee~lin liao] n sparrin w lena n omg im whacked lk siao again... n got 'flung' off when she grabbed my leg; but oso hit her a few times hehe~ after tt was pumpin n crunches n my neck damn hurts; guess its stil not healed after all thou can turn freely now... oso got bruises on both hips n rite instep...

~OUCH~ so injured [phy, mental, emotN & financial] & brokin poor tis b-dae T_T >_< -_-"

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b-dae celeb

start track: lush995

had dinner w okasan, thing n kk @ orchard hotel cafe... thou its buffet but e food wasnt tt fantastic but stil we stuff ourselves bloated... e live band @ e other lounge sux; their singin was >_< althou its juz a simple meal im stil quite satisfied w it; w juz a few frenz... no mood 2 create a big din...

stil no news of him... was i real damn fuckin stupid 2 'surrender' all e stuffz den? stil ve 2 more daes 2 his 'deadline' b4 i get harsh & he gets e bad consequences if he appears after tt...

end track: lush995

m i cheated???!!!

270405
sold my s700i 2 j & he found a m900 on e same nite

050505
handed over e m900 & 2mp cmos cam 4 trade w o2 mini & ixus i

080505
handed over 250 n supposed 2 get e mini & ixus @ nite
no calls or msgs; calls all went 2 vm; msn no response

now
stil no calls or msgs; calls all went 2 vm; msn no response
mia 1+ dae
cases: no rep, hp spoilt, went back 2 jb, hp off

worst case: he zao lo; im CHEATED!!!
stil waitin 4 hopes...

finali lush has internet radio ~yeah~ althou its not listed under mc's hearnsee pg weirdo but @ least dun ve 2 specially on my hifi when im on e pc juz 2 LUSH ^_^

HATE RAINY DAES

fuckin hate rainy daes... seem so peaceful when i leave but so destructive when i reach...

go off e bus nearly got splashed 2x by 2 buses
x e rd
slip n fell bangin my head on e flr w pple not helpin me but LUFFIN @ me in e shelter
tokin abt sg pple bein gracious???!!!
FUCK LAR
partial fault on my flip flops tt i dumped 4 another @ funan
leavin me in my berms & tshirt 3/4 soaked
can remove my tshirt but not e berms
typin now sittin on e pair of wet berms
juz 4 30 MINS!!! n off i go... >_<

FUCKIN HATE RAINY DAES
DAMN THOSE TT JUZ STOOD N LUFF
MAY THEIR MOUTHS B FLOODED W ULCERS!!!

muay thai lvl3 #6

2dae's pt coz NO 1 came... T_T skippin was 8 mins... shadow... alot of padwk tt i kicked til my 2 big toes bleed but i didnt feel a thing... n lastly alittle bagwk... all in 1 hr... tink if i cld ton thru there might b sparrin... but too bad...

used e analgesic rec by my mum; sloan n damn ve a BURNIN sensatN not a WARM sensatN... my shins were BURNIN tt i took of my ankle guards... my hands were BURNIN til i removed my handwraps... even so w e gloves on its lk a SAUNA inside... wah lao eh... lk on FIRE...

so all in all 2dae me n my trainin SUX... my footwk after so long's stil SHIT!!! goin 2 do lotsa shadow @ hm... n stablize my balance n movin momentum...

ARGH!! I FUCKIN SUX!!!

e destructive power of salonpas gel [e sports deep heatin gel] tt 'melted' my muji container... so soft tt it can b 'torn' outta it... w/in 2 daes; feels lk solidified gel/soft mouldable plastic >_< [pix by my m900; super clear & sharp rite? hehe]

muay thai lvl3 #5

2dae's lina, edwin n me... n amazinly i didnt ko thou i oni zzz 4 4 hrs... there's shadow, shadow techniques, bagwk [i sux; no power], padwk [i sux as well], sparrin w lina n i reali² SUX... her 'rainin punches' r so damn fast tt i cant block not even push kick... her kicks r so hard or's it her shin guards r not tt padded tt it seems so PAINFUL when i get hit... n of coz her push kick's so power tt i prac FLEW away n lied FLAT!!!

I SUX @ 2DAE'S TRAININ SO IM GONA COME DOWN EARLY TMR 2 TRAIN N B DILIGENT IN SELF TRAININ!!!

cheatin cab driver

start track: kenny g - miracles

overslept so took a cab down 2 sch juz now n got cheated... e cab turned rite, xited @ back of meridien hotel, went down, turned rite @ sg shoppin centre up 2 river valley den down 2 sch... fuck!!! dunno he meant it or wat but its a v? big circle lor... tio jammed summore... no erp leh... costed me a fuckin $5.50... im already as broke as can b liao... T_T he cld ve turned left, go straight via bugis or bencoolen n straight up 2 funan den turn rite 2 rom n down... wah lao eh...

T_T IM SO FUCKIN BROKE LIAO YET STIL GOT PPLE 1 2 CHEAT ME T_T

every1's askin me 2 go 4 bbq on fri but e match's oso den but @ nite i tink... howeva e bbq prob gona end in evenin or mayb nite coz in e HOT pm bbq abit -_-" n oso b4 e food's bbq we all'll b bbq-ed liao... wahaha

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drivin prac #11

been 10 daes since i last drove & of coz @ nite... did perpendicular parkin 4 1 hr & e car died x times... parkin manual cars require alot of ctrl on e clutch & accelerator... after tt drove 4 another hr cruisin up 2 60 kmph but oso made sum fatal mistakes lk 4get 2 signal & turn rite, brake w/o lookin @ rear mirror, nv look @ side mirrors, u-turn too early >_<

juz..

im so B.O.R.E.D
zzz @ 0400+ woke @ 1100+
nua @ e gym frm 1200 til now
waitin 4 1500 2 train; 2 vent my rage
tryin 2 kip myself awake coz my zzz head seems so heavy now

ytd was C.H.A.O.S
1 client bcame 2
1's e official client frm 'cws'
e other's e potential user [or so i tink]
did stuffz not under me yet i did it w others lookin & chattin ard ~wtf~
seems im e 'bao ka liao' proj man
tinkins r not synchro thou i tot it was
mayb tis's effect of diff culture upbrinin
every1 1s it simplified so do it but cant we use research stuffz 4 ref instead of mod?
mod w understandin & skills not juz plain copyin brainlessly 4 e sake of submissN ~tt juz sux~
noe its harsh 2 start frm scratch [html-php, access-mysql] but im sure it can b done
my ideals & concepts vs their ideals r concepts = clash & clashes

goin 2 b in 4 a harsh time these 2.5 mths
docs & tech wk omost under me
no wonder meng said 'u doin tech wk y r u oso doin doc wks?'
dunno how 2 get em 2 wk coz every1 seems so clueless abt it
skipin & hopin ard e req & design; juz jump in2 e implementatN sectN juz lk me in e past killin myself
suddenly feel so alone & lonely; doin 'everythin' myself
wish 4 sum1 2 b w me; listen 2 me; fight w me; catch me when im on e verge of fallin
reali miz e guyz in tp

luv u all guyz in tp

'old' pple

been in contact these few daes w a few 'old' pple... n of coz not in contact w a few other 'old' pple as welll...

old 'pple' #1: jc
saw his msg 1 fine early am [when im stil zzz in bed] askin me if i 1 2 join him in sim 4 pt bscit... surprised huh??? its been lk 16 mths since we last toked/msged 'alot'.. after ah meng's we were both bz in sch n he got attached... after tt he went 4 ns & e last time i saw him was @ tp grad tt was lk 8 mths ago...

old 'pple' #2: thrash
again tis's another old 'pple' tt ive not contacted or met 4 lk... eh... too long liao cant rmb haha~ durin tis period of time she moved hse, had more catz, beta job & life which r her 'upz' now after 'conquerin' e 'downs'...

old 'pple' #3: ah san
been abt 6+ mths since i last saw her... coz of 'my attitude problems' tt made me 1 2 siam... i dunno if we can 'go back' but i noe i'll nid time n when i reali ve nothin on my mind...

since tis yr ive been quite bz w sch, wk, drivin, zzz tt i cant b bothered 2 throw much time in2 goin out w pple & not 2 mention my $ status tt threw me in2 self-isolatN 2 curb my 'urges'... while there r pple i havent been hangin outta w [kk, thing, seth, lynn etc...] n bein outta e circle [no chiong, ktv, movies, jb etc...] there r oso other pple ive been 'hangin' w [guys @ e gym, pple in sch [ltd 2 e campus area]] sumhow tis lifestyle may seem borin & i seemed 2 b domesticated [althou im not an avivid chiongster but i'll stil slack outta my hse] & of coz my life's healthier [away frm chinmies & alcohols] yet stil im kipin pple @ bay coz i noe they wont stay long physically...

if 2 calculate based on internet bandwidth utilizatN it wld b:
logical bandwidth: unlimited, uncalculatable time & volume
physical bandwidth: v limited, calculatable time & volume

muay thai lvl3 #4

2dae's trainin's w cheryl, edwin & lina [tink so] n e usual stuff juz tt e bagwk damn sux... not in form... thou w a few other combos... sicko~ den its 3xpadwk w cheryl & joe alt... after tt was 1 round sparrin [coz no time] when cheryl grabbed my leg n me bein a BUMMER lost my OH SO IMPT BALANCE n laid flat @ e bginin... so sia suay... >_<

sumthin 2 note: my OH SO IMPT BALANCE simply sux... so im a weakie @ it even after so long... wah lao eh... can die liao lar... T_T

ah meng o~i~yo~

woke @ 10 when im supposed 2 b in sch den -_-" didnt do e db [coz gona abort e complex mambo db] & e pmp assumptNs [braindead liao] so zoohan was lk 'theres nothin 2 b done so wats e mitin 4?' >_<><

after tt it was rainin catz & dogz all e way til i got off... wanted 2 chiong thru but w/in steps im totally soaked so called him 2 'save' me wahaha so waited & waited til i saw my 恩公 *_* w 1 umbrella... aniwae he sent me ax e bridge n we toked abt intima [e proj i did w em back den], he asked me if i 1 2 go back den i asked him 'u 1 me meh?' haha coz if things go on well prob he'll nid pple 2 do documentatN & research [sumhow 2 him im quick hands @ it ^_^ thou i kinda find it borin... goin 2 do sumthin based on vb/asp.net tis holidae if ve time] but well i 'officially' end sch in nov 05 so wait til den den tok ar hehe... gave him his monkey [shit~ 4got 2 cam it nvm~] den he went back liao...

IM JUZ SO FUCKIN BROKE!!!

tink im reali v? xtremely PATHETIC!!! tis mth... after returnin my kind creditors, gettin $ back frm my debtors, subtractin my xpenses... im juz left w abt $3/day til 300405!!! can u blieve it???!!!

things i can live w/o: no chiong nvm... no movies nvm... no ktv nvm... no comics nvm... no magz nvm... no pool nvm... no games nvm... no gd food & drinks nvm... n i dun smoke... BUT...

here's SG 1 of e metropolitan where even a western BUN cost $1 <, a chinese BUN cost 50c <, 500ml of h20 $1 < even if u c posh cars cruisin e streets e owners may not b freakin rich thou sum r reali damn RICH... in sg either e pple r REALI DAMN RICH else they r puttin a forced front but e damn richies blong 2 e gov [tts a well known fact] juz look @ e taxes [gst, coe, serv charge blah³]

mood vocab: poor, broke, pathetic, down, demoralized, dezperate, helpless

muay thai lvl3 #3

2dae's edwin & me... @ 1st i tot its goin 2 b pt til he appeared @ e last min phew~ else die liao... aniwae e usual skippin, warm ups, shadow, 3x bag & padwk alt, 3x rounds sparrin w joe alt btwn him n me, 50 pumpin & 100 crunches...

e entertainin pt 2dae's of coz SPARRIN!!! dunno how long nv spar w joe liao... ^_^ due 2 insufficient zzz [these 2 daes oni zzz 4 4 hrs >_<] & heavy wkload [lotsa reports & setup 2 do] so form isnt v gd therfore hrt [human reactN time]'s slower... althou joe's in front of me & i noe he's gona whack me but he's not in my 'front focus range' he seems 2 b @ e side & i noe he moved but oni react when e hit reached me which's too late... tis cont 4 2 rounds til e last round tt i reali threw everythin out & 'reacted' actively so managed 2 hit him a few x... hehe~ but stil i tio whacked more... howeva edwin's reali quite gd; he managed 2 hit joe a few x but oso got hit a few x back...

$ matas...

been tinkin these few daes abt e upcomin stuffs & $ matas...

drivin
things ve stablized so its down 2 2 hrs/wk = 8 hrs/mth = $160 [can cope w my pay] hope can pass 1st time so can get rid of tis load...

once in a lifetime 21st b-dae
my okasan ve been askin me wat i 1... chalet? poolside? restaurant? e thing's who'll come since im lk so dao... chalet ve 2 get food & drinks & cant wreck havoc since she's ard... if go pub oso nid a sum & dunno where 2 go since quite sumtime since i last went sumware [more den 2 mths!!!] & those 'ideal' places r down liao so... if restaurant ve 2 decide on who... tinkin of e ms buffet wahahaha else 4get abt it since tt dae ve sch & wk... dunno lar pple help me tink of ideas leh... but 2 me b-dae's juz b-dae lor...

notebk
been tinkin if i shld get a 2nd hand notebk 4 e projs but e thing's will i use it other den e projs or's it juz 4 mobility sake [2 do programmin & displayin @ sch]... dun 1 it 2 end up lk my gateway tts gone 4eva >_<>_< mayb i shld give it up & kip e $ 4 future use so i wont b so broke...

I HATE E FEEL OF BEIN BROKE!!!
WHERE I CANT B LK HOW I USED 2 B...
ALWAZ TINKIN ABT E 'SHALL I OR SHALL I NOT' QNS >_<
ARGH TTS SO PATHETIC & SAD & OF COZ DUN SUIT MY NAME: JOY!!!
but well i tink every1'll go thru tis phase & learn $ management e hard way so... GANBATTE!!!

unreasonable man...

went 2 e gym & ate brenda's v&#179; dry beehoon [i luv slurp~] den started trainin @ 1500 den finished @ ard 1630... v long nv self train liao... managed 2 throw a few fast punches & high kicks... oso 2 gauge wats my max... goin 2 train tmr again ^_^

was on 980 frm bugis juz now den @ e little india mrt stop there was a commotN cozed by an indian ojisan who was 'scoldin' e bus driver coz he stopped b4 e 'front' of e stop & wanted 2 drive off w/o movin 2 e front... so he was kpkb abt it sayin 'he stopped bhind oso ve 2 stop in front b4 drivin off' blah&#179; & stil said 1 2 call e police [juz 2 stops ahead]... den he was 'arguin' w a chinese ojisan sayin 'u dunno e 'law' so u dun tok' den sumthin abt 'i dun care'... if not 4 another ojisan @ e back tellin e driver 2 drive off & dun care else e bus'll b stuck there 4 dunno how long liao...

sigh... sian... fuck... shit... wa lao eh... damn...

start track: wkrz urban lounge

HELP!!! SOS!!! 救命!!!

strugglin w documentatNs tt i dun 1 2 coz its outta my league... if im e 1 doin i'll noe wat i 1 but im not so im neither here nor there... juz doin sum stuff pple dunno how 2 do... not even tinkin abt e credits... juz hope 2 complete tis successfully n not b lk wat happened in tp...

'new' technologies r used... sum r optimistic abt it coz ve 'ready-mades', sum r rejectin it coz of e word 'dunno', sum juz 1 e ez way out by writin... me? im optimistic abt it if its frm 'scratch' which im sure can complete in 14 wks... plan: html & db concurrent & php @ e back... is it so diff 4 pple 2 learn new stuff rather den juz mod frm others?

e mentality of pple's juz 2 get thru w a 'p' they r satisfied & 2 get tt piece of paper irregardless of e grade or whether it looks nice 2 their future bosses... past mentality of mine back in tp tt got me in2 shit... tts y im crammin here now 2 make up 4 it... howeva i tink w my kinda attitude [bein autistic & anti_social] doesnt reali 'allow' me 2 do grp wk [else i fuck up e whole thing or i fuck up myself or i pray tt 'caretakers'll pull me [a leech] thru]

final proj... 1 of e most impt unit yet its so fuck... but thx god its oni 1 sem unlk monash's 2 sem else i can kill myself liao...

y r pple scared of changes? if every1's 2 stay stagnant & juz mod frm others, wat creativity & innovatN wld there b? life wld b so predictable & borin...

ITS SO FUCKIN SIAN/BORIN/IRRITATIN
CAN SUM1 PULL ME OUTTA TIS SHITHOLE???!!!
IM TOO DEMORALIZED!!!

drivin prac #10

went ard route #5 & #6 2dae... quite a long dist countin i drove 4 3 hrs til zgl had a butt ache haha~ 1 lorry drove out w/o seein me & omost banged in2 us, 1 bike & car cut my path, another car cut unsuccessfully... but more on e road prac... mount e kerb when doin u-turn coz not 'front' enuf... saw a tp miz e left turn 2 zebra crossin so ve 2 go str8 & died in e mid of e rd coz he/she was panickin... he said tt person failed liao coz nv go where he/she's supposed 2 go 2... after next wk'll b parkin & circuit liao so can cut down on e hrs & $... its oni 0504 & im BROKE liao... broke daes bginin earlier...

new cat... ~meow~

start track: lush995

went 2 e cat show @ expo w kk n there were mani³ catz!!! so mani tt i was bz cammin em... well e cat show had all e 'class' catz & omost all of em were 'prized' i tell u... mostly long haired pure breed... & pple were crammin all over em... managed 2 touch a few thou ^_^ tink e owners muz ve spent alot of effort & time on em...

went over 2 e cws side & there were abt 40 catz over there ^_^ howeva 2 get in, ve 2 fill in an 'interested 4 adoptN' form so kk filled & we waited... there were oso mani catz in there & of coz me; bein a cat craz of coz was bz cammin em again wahahaha... as luck wld ve it kk spotted a pure ginger 2 yo male called ollie [they r goin 2 call him o~ni aka taro aka yam >_<] n after time she decided 2 adopt it!!! her requirements: cat tt zzz & dun coz much panic ^_^ n ve 2 stay put in her rm most of e time... so ollie was e 1!!! e cat was oso fostered by sia ping so can say got 'fate' w her ^_^

after tt went 2 bj pet luvers centre 2 get e minimal basic stuff den back hm... her sis & dad were quite acceptable 2 it n it hid in e rm under her bed after we let it out... coz all of us laid flat 2 coax it out... but it didnt so aniwae had dinner w em & her mum was #_% abt it...

@ abt 2200 ollie came out, ate, drank den movin 'actively' ard & of coz bouncin & nuain on her bed... well tis cat's prev owner was an english who 'lost' e vac card so cldnt bring it back so prob its used 2 zzz w e owner liao...

after tt i went hm & told mum abt it n she was sayin 'no pets. if u bring a cat in, i'll kill e MOUSE'... >_<

end track: lush995

year of e thrazhed

not feelin optimistic abt e projs... more constraints den ever... pple doin things [e ever 'who 1 2 do n dun do wat], time 2 multitask btwn sch, wk n nfs, knowledge 2 do things, wkload cruzhing... so much wk yet so little time, so little time 2 get more $, so little $ yet so much spendins... its juz so fuckin thrazhed...

e x800 tt im so gian on...

ching ming

stupid ching ming... got dragged up early in e am n changed so many trains 4 dunno wat fuck coz sum1 dun 1 2 walk den waited 4 a non-xistent bus 4 dunno how fuckin long coz sum1 'dunno' how 2 read n now tt sum1's dunno doin wat shit... fuck lar ruined my day dun ve all day 2 do tis kinda thing... call me unfillal if u 1 but i dun give a fuckin damn abt it

muay thai lvl3 #2

start track: lush995

2dae trainin's cheryl, edwin & me... skippin, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk w cheryl & 3x padwk w joe, 2x spar w cheryl, 50 pumpin & 100 crunches n im >.<; goin 2 die as usual... thruout e trainin my boxers were lk slipin off >.< so rmb: nv wear loose boxers when doin vigorous xercises wahahahaha

end track: lush995

drivin prac #9

supposed 2 wake @ 10+ 2 do e pmp but juz ko til 12+ 2 eat den cab down 2 ubi... waste of $ due 2 my slackiness... >_<

drove out e park but steered too much outwards til nearly buanged by oncomin... den cruise down... & 'spdin' 2 overtake but managed 2 slow in time... trapped in a few long jams tt nearly zzz again... drove thru a 2 lane rd & there was oni a small space coz both sides parked w cars wah lao eh... when endin accidentalli drove in2 e yellow box & in2 e path of comin cars >_<

2dae nearly scared e hell outta him but realized tt drivin when im *o*'s a no²; potential rd hazard... completed route #7 so shld b a few more 2 go... but if tio tis durin tp den quite gd since most of e time's trapped in e jam wahahaha

gd fridae

start track: master blaster - 1 nite in bkk

im not gd on gd fridae as usual; nv go church... guess i'll b banished in2 hell when im dead...

zzz til 1300+ n saw my chip&dale stil dlin... wonder when can i watch... kk came 2 do her mp3 & guitar chords while playin outrun, unlocked stage 6 ^_^

went 2 cine kbox 2 sing w her sis & fren, weijie til 2100+... had a wwe summer slam there coz i didnt 1 2 get outta e corner & she dragged me off & i buanged on2 e flr >_< bot a nbc hp hangie @ cine had a long ride in 'his' hyundai [e black synthetic leather gave a '?£­¢·P' tt i nearly ko + her sis's 'aromatherapy'] 2 hougang 4 teochew porridge & pool @ k-pool [by kbox] den a long ride hm... juz now in e car heard on e radio [93.3] e dj said '祝各位基督教徒有個安樂的耶穌受難日'... i was lk ... its not easter; its e dae jesus died [wld u b ^_^ if sum1 u noe died?]

aniwae kk's goin jb tmr... reali 1 2 go but too broke... even resisted buyin a furry cushN w a jap cat on it [its oni 9.95!!!]; if its e norm me i'll buy but now... sigh~ $ seems nv enuf...

end track: hellsing ost - logos naki world

drivin prac #8

start track: no doubt - hey bb

prac @ 1330 drove ard i tink route 10 den @ certain times i was too fast but stil managed 2 brake in time smoothly else cfm die car [althou got a few x coz released clutch faster den steppin e accelerator] other den tt, e drive was quite smooth... xcept tt when drivin off parked, didnt turn enuf & neared buanged e car in front but hey there were 'kidz' blkin e way >_<

end track: no doubt - hey bb

muay thai lvl3 #1

start track: j lo - stil ard

left sch @ 1630, snatched a cab frm a guy @ city hall & finali reached @ 1700... 2dae's edwin & me... skipped, 3xbagwk, 3xpadwk, 2x [20 l.pk+20 r.pk+20 l.k+20 r.k+50 punches] den spar w joe [v long nv spar liao] & got hit a few x... sweated out alot althou e time's short... endin w 3x25 pushups & 3x25 situps...

had a great shower den down 2 kk's place 2 play ps2 mahjong ^_^ won a few rounds w a max of 8x 228 pts & paper prata ^_^ den hm liao...

end track: j lo - ride / die

changed my 2 studs in2 1 spike [juz luv em] & 1 x [given by kk last xmas]

early in e am

here m i early in e am @ sch...
rottin...
waitin 4 pple 2 start e proj class...
zzz...

gona ve a 5+ hrs break lata...
goin hm 2 zzz...
else xbox...
gona restrain e numb hands frm bangin on e drums...

fri gona come back 4 lec...
no tut on thurs...
tmr no sch [unofficiali]
juz zzz den up 2 train...

find tis proj grp -_-"...
coz pple seemed >_< 2 come...
noe its early in e am tt i slack in bed too...
but stuff stil ve 2 b done...
@ least set e frame den can go on own ways liao...
but its NOT HAPPENIN tt way...
sigh~
hope mp scenario wont reappear here...

broke & poor

start track: maroon 5 - sundae am

realized i cant owe pple $ coz i'll feel patheticalli poor & demoralized tt i'll end up spendin more unncessarily instead of savin up & 'pawnin' my notes 2 my mum 2 get 'usable' $... omg... oso hate tt feel coz i noe there's $ sumware out there but its not in my reach... oso dun lk 2 chase unless im real D.E.Z.P.E.R.A.T.E!!! coz they r no beta den me so it seems so B.A.D 2 drive pple up e wall...

owin pple $ makes me give up my luxuries: ktv, pool, gd food, drink [even a breko pint makes me ?_?], buy stuff @ @_@, movies, comics, vcds, games... instead ve 2 tink how return, pay bill, where 2 find, how 2 save, dilemma when buyin... omg... pathetic... miserable...

came up w tis analogy abt debtors & creditors:
^_^ debtor = sf series auto car
^_# debtor = se series semi-auto car
#_@ debtor = sb series manual car; goin 2 scrap liao

end track: brian mcfadden - irish son

7 hrs of my sundae

start track: lush995

went w thing 2 myshop.com 2 sell off her vcr, vcd & cam 4 $14???!!! no wonder they r thrivin -_-" after tt she went 2 tampines & i went 2 bugis arcade... played 2 lvl18 guys there & lost terribly... den bumped in2 seth & ah gal & dinner after tt went 2 ps mit thing & saw e xmas chip & dale (s) !!! omg im goin 2 pick em again wahahaha!!! thou its much more diff den suntec's... den played bball 4 awhile den hm liao...

end track: lush995

drivin prac #7

start track: lush995

had a 3 hr prac 2dae... drove alot too, trapped in jams & saw 'graciousness' of sg drivers >_<

a lexus horned @ me when i was gettin in2 e rite lane 4 rite turn coz he cldnt go str8 in2 e lane left of me but its NOT MY PROBLEM FUCKER!!! drivin a 'rich man's car'!!! cant u c e jam & wait???!!! not as thou u r 趕著去投胎... im oso quein 2 get in2 e lane... n mind u, im a L plater

accidentalli stepped on e accelerator when supposed 2 brake n freaked out 張果老 hehe

after tt went bugis & got e percussN master card [dunno wats wrong all e char of my name's wrong so its 'sssu' shit ar...] 2 collect all my exp [no card play how gd oso lk tt] & 'challenged' by a guy called 'xi' & lost terribly coz didnt get my best track... btw they changed e machines!!! & there goes e scores... got 2 recr8 all our hiscores but i set mine 4 my best track liao @ 800k+ wahahahaha!!!

end track: lush995

muay thai lvl2 #20

2dae's edwin, cheryl, amanda & me trainin its oso my last lesson 4 fit... next's fighter... dun sound hapi do i? coz i noe im not up 2 it yet tts y...

as usual im 1/2 DEAD!!! partly coz im v³ affected by e NEW DESTRUCTIVE timetable tt made me zzz @ abt 0400...

e usual stuff: skip, warmup, shadow, bag, pad, spar... had 1 pad w joe thou...

spar was technique spar:

push kick+k.block vs sweep+rite kick
jab+x+tap+kick vs block+block+x+block
kick+high kick vs block+low kick

thrashed again

start track: 10cc - im not in luv

sch totali sux!!! juz when im rejoicin tt i can wk in peace thou i ve 2 bear w 3 early ams... an email 2dae juz THRASHED me yet again!!! T_T

1 full dae + 2 other late daes + mizzin thurs trainin - early ams = less wktime = less $ = inconvenience 2 b&j T_T

its a major 乾坤大挪移!!!!

DAMN IT all plans THRASHED³ T_T >_< -_-"

end track: jacky cheung - 天黑² live

slacky 1st wk of sch

yeah!!! i got a D for 208 wahahaha seems tt slacky oso can make it -_-" althou im real SLACK den but i wk 4 e assignments & xams k...

sch bgins tis wk & im doin final yr proj liao [dunno y] & its omost 'concurrent' w 211 & 325 coz they r lk e base 4 it so life aint gona b ^_^ tis sem... tis wk oni 2 lecs & 0 tuts ^_^

im gona b v² BZ tis sem... final proj+2 prog units+tp+prac+trainin+wk... omg...

sg men r nothin but SHIT

sg = gracious & courteous country???!!! SHIT!!!

tis am @ a bakery, 1 ojisan [35-40] cut my q & even looked down @ me den looked up as thou he saw NOTHIN!!! den another cut again tis time beta tokin 2 his fren & help him pay!!! e owner was even worse!!! look @ me &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; turn away!!! not holdin anithin dun mean im NOT buyin; i juz 1 a iced milo tts in ur counter stupid!!!

i really? wanted 2 say: 'hello u 1 2 q up BHIND???!!! [if they say 'im here 1st']: hello, bein small doesnt mean IM INVISIBLE!!! or u can BULLY!!! btw im wearin BRITE YELLOW 2DAE!!!!

FUCK IT!!!
I HATE TIS KIND OF MEN!!! THEY R NOTHIN BUT SHIT? & MORE SHIT!!!
if u r tinkin y gals turn les? its bcoz of all these USELESS MEN!!!

aniwae i got a can of 2x xpresso chilled @ e new cheers! opp sch thou its x [$4] but it reali WAKES me up ^_^ oso made a mess @ e counter coz e kogi gushed out after shakin it damn hard wahahahaha

my 1st phy mahjong 醐: 7 對子 wahaha!!! 1 & oni 4 tis 16 rounds thou... -_-"

drivin prac #6

start track: lush995

hr on parkin & movin off slopes n u-turns den its on e rd liao... yeah im finally cruisin on e streets!!! if u c a sdu series maroon honda city w 2 L plates ard ubi area dun horn me ar coz qdl MUZ give way 2 L plates =_*

end track: lush995

suntan happenin

start track: lush 995

went 2 suntan @ sentosa n every1 was late... waited 1 <>_< left @ abt 1600...

off 2 suntec n citylink 2 fdcourt area [via xhibitN hall frm e escalator] was packed lk tuna & sardine... lots & lots of pple... give em 1 lane they occupy 1.5 lanes -_-" @ least managed 2 get a table @ e fdcourt by 2 kind souls ^_^

went on 2 e arcade 2 find my chip & dale gone!!! oni 1 chip left T_T played percussN master w kk I WON den solo den challenged by a guy which I WON [my best track & a richie ren track special 13*], den again by kk & I WON n endin e game ^_^ hands damn nua liao... den played ddr w seth; ages since i last played it n im >_< sigh~ no stamina liao but its a great wkout ^_^ mayb can start stampin on it again ^_^

after a drink went 2 bugis in search of dale but they dun ve it there so left 4 hm... so sad my chip's alone now...

end track: - lush995

garfield spider series

got tis chip frm e 'pick' machine @ suntec arcade @ oni $2!!! wanted e dale [its so kawaii w e eye mask & zzz eyes ^_^] as well but guess didnt ve much luck w it coz sum1 got it after my failed tries T_T

muay thai lvl2 #19

2dae's cheryl, edwin & me trainin... skip, shadow, padwk & bagwk [abit slack] n 3 rounds of sparrin w cheryl... 2dae's real xhaustin lk im goin 2 DIE coz didnt eat xcept e white hershey's when i reached coz no time... mizzed e bus... delayed by a non-gulity obasan & 2 nus students tt DUNNO how 2 use e atm 2 pay bills wao lao eh!!! >_<

new set of kb+optical mouse [by logitech my fav brand thou more x den others] changed coz pple r sayin 'joy change ur mouse' coz it juz DUN respond 2 em xcept ME hahahaa~ gave up a gd wireless bargain [oni $4 more >_<]coz e seller was unresponsive aniwae tis's kool & sleek black i LUV ^_^

new haircut by doreen; nothin much xcept chopped e sides & top 2 facilitate stylin

drivin prac #5

start track: lush995

2dae's rite turn, drive out frm park & u-turn [in carpark]... @ 1st e u-turns were quite smooth til i started too far out n e turn ended too close too e kerb so ve 2 reverse & it was too much til nearly banged on e kerb bhind -_-" oso there were turns too much or little but @ least e clutch ctrl's beta liao ^_^ next 2 lessons wld b slopes n hopefully after tt can drive out on e rds liao...

end track: lush995

s700i ^_^

start track: lush995

traded my ex-luv x700 4 a s700i [v incomplete set] @ a hp shop @ bv -_-" e cash 2 put out was quite an amt coz my price's abt 400+... alot of complicatNs but ve 2 admit tt e s700i cam's real gd; even @ e highest zoom e pic's stil clear juz tt its alittle heavier but @ least its stable... guess tts wat gd abt se bein 2nd 2 nokia in terms of os stability but not e batt life... e deal's unfilled warr + 128mb ms duo [w an incomplete pkg tt kk & i 'forced' e guy 2 settle 4 us ^_^]

will prob stay long w tis coz ve no $ liao; @ least til end of yr? 3g's not in my league now; hp's 1 time subscriptN's x mths -_-"

end track: lush995

muay thai lvl2 #18

2dae's cheryl, edwin & me trainin... skip, shadow, padwk [alot of combos] & bagwk [abit slack] n sparrin w cheryl which was quite rough; kicks everyware u hit me i hit u w gapplin [body & leg] total 3 rounds ^_^ den ended trainin... reason y tis post's short coz cant rmb e combos used... well muaythai combos r everchangin in e conditNs so its up 2 e individuals reactN time ^_^

drivin prac #4

my 1st time drivin in e rain... been rainin since x am til now where its no longer rainin ~meow~ & ~woof~ -_-" went ubi in e rain n waited til 1400 2 start e 1 hr prac... 2dae's focus's rite turn & overtake n of coz e common clutch & steer ctrl... all in e rain...

garfield snow series [left2rite] [1st pic on e last posted pic]

drivin prac #3

1st hr was left turn n clutch ctrl den e 2nd hr he agreed 2 let me turn rite which started another string of panic @tacks...

1. 2x release clutch too early den died in e mid of rd [rite turn]
2. nv turn enuf or too much [left & rite]
3. goin too fast on g4 [60 kph]
4. omost bua against a few on rite