20050531


dinner @ terra; sirloin steak, large choco milkshake [doesnt taste fab but its juz diff] n e choco chip ice cream which overfilled me n puked out 1/2 of e milkshake after tt >_<

20050530

drivin prac #13

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2nite's parallel parkin n im a mess w/o 國老 next 2 me haha kip bangin in2 poles... after tt was cruisin up 2 gear 4, changin lanes, doin u-turns, turnin, up n down slopes... next'll b cruisin n parkin in e broad daelite; more free in e dae den nite n now im faster liao so dun ve 2 spend alot of time parkin... after tt's circuit n cruisin on sat... den w lotsa prac comes w $ flyin... but nvm short term broke~ness's beta den long time sufferin ^_^

countin down 2 240605 14:45... 4 e moment of truth...

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in juz 24 daes...

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finally e xam schedule's out:
211 @ 200605 1400
325 @ 230605 0930

n it didnt clash w my tp ~phew~ but w muaythai n wk; well tt can b settled quite ezily...
den its...
HOLIDAE!!! MY LONG AWAITED 1+ MTH HOLIDAE!!!
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wata dae... ~ko~

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went 2 aljunied 2 mit e 'potential' buyer of lynn's 7270; a green couple tt commented tt e hp's BAD 4 a 2 mths old coz e keypad's 'SCRATCHED' which 2 me its v minimal n 'invisible' under tt kinda litin... aniwae they didnt buy n stil smilinly tell me 'sorry 2 make u come all e way'... another buyer 1s me 2 go all e way 2 JURONG!!! where lynn stays -_-" he/she die? oso dun 1 2 go central so 4get it... wtf pple r so fussy; true tt clams change covers x but pple ve fingernails cfm'll scratch alittle 1 mah [as thou e green couple dun ve -_-"] n it wont kill 2 travel 2 sumware centralized; dun SELLERS ve e PRIORITY 2 fix dealin locs???!!!
so ani1 lookin 4 7270 contact me thx

after tt got e stuffs frm lynn den went 2 kk's place 2 fix her sis's pc 4 8 HRS!!! n its stil down... 4mattin failed 1 by 1; ntfs -> fat -> ntfs quick -> fat quick all cant... omg... suspect its e hd hw failure coz b4 tt it was already rebootin endlessly n formattin died @ 25/30%; even e cdrom's cronkin up by not 'refreshin' when discs are changed... wah lao eh can die ar... hope its not down by me else X_X by her sis liao... forced myself not 2 zzz so tt can wake @ 0400 [of coz i zzz there again wahaha im sucha DEVIL!!!] 2 try again so read 16 bks of shaman king whilst drippin due 2 my oh-so-bluved cat allergy T_T

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20050529

new hps glam

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wk, trained, ate brenda's spag [dunno where it went after 1/2 hr -_-"], met kk, lynn n jasz @ ps... when i reached they were @ best lookin @ HPS!!! lynn was eyein e 3230 n jasz, e 6230I [both my ideal hps] after tt went 2 paragon m1 2 change lynn's outdated sim card den dinner @ cine where i 'childishly', 'kiddiely' 1 2 take cam w e madagascar head boards n it was juz nice 4 e 4 of us but im e oni 1 posin as alex T_T den we left liao... earlier in e dae they went 2 far east ms 2 get my m900 4 me @ $398 wah lao eh so damn cheap lor [as compared 2 abt 1 mth ago @ $450<] + unfilled warr ^_^

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me as madagascar's alex w e 'bheaded' animalz...

e 2 hps in my posessN now; lynn's 7270 4 sale n my 'recovered n'll b treasured/cherished/luved' m900

20050527

1st nite out...

start track: internet power98 - am jam

okasan oni left 4 1 dae n i...

didnt come hm last nite after wk; instead went 2 kk's place ate her mum's fried rice & chix tonic soup den zzz there on e upper bunk bed... tot i wont b able 2 zzz due 2 ollie's meowin all e nite n e radio bein quite loud... saw okasan's msg @ 0130 [its 260505 1030 over there; imagine flyin 4 hrs n its stil e 'same dae' tink i'll go nuts] den sumhow managed 2 doze off den awake @ 0600 @ e retro ufm1003 am show n ollie, e alarm clock... after tt did sum stuffs den outta e hse 2 clarke quay mac [1st time there haha on e couch summore haha] 4 breakfast den back hm...

saw a calico cat @ clarke quay but i cant cam it T_T
I MUZ VE A CAM HP ASAP ELSE I'LL GO NUTS W/O CAMMIN CATZ!!!

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20050526

ARGH!! I HATE PROGRAMMIN!!!

start track: leann rimes - cant fight e moonlite @ power98

been bangin on 211 4 a few daes but stil stuck @ e baxic functions; login cases not reali wkin, sum layouts dun appear e way they shld but dunno y coz on e pc its fine but when uploaded it turns in2 sumthin else... validatN not done yet, static layout not up... blah~ tts y i FUCKIN HATE PROGRAMMIN!!! it juz saps my brain cells endlessly w little progress... i dun ve much patience so my dear codes n pgs pls wk 4 me!!! omg im gona ko ani moment liao...

okasan left 4 vancouver @ 0600 liao tink now she's on e flight there after leavin tw @ 1400... e time diff's 15 hrs so meanin she'll reach there @ 0900 [vancouver time] when its 0000 here -_-" if its me i'll zzz in e plane den do anithin else but 10+ hrs on e plane tink i'll go CRAZY!!! no pc, no internet, no cats, no cam, no muaythai... ARGH!!! aniwae e whole hse'll b mine til next sun 1700 wahaha but dun tink'll b havoc~kin coz ve loads, tons & mountains of WK 2 b done -_-" tink im rather nasty 2 her coz e moment she left, i put on my devil horns n b my '小魔怪', cropped my hair [dunno how i looks lk @ e back] n bleached my hair ash gold-brown [took me e whole bottle of gatsby 'natural bleach' & 1+ hr coz my hair's juz too STUBBORNLY HEALTHY 2 'absorb' e color] but im rather ^_^ w e effects n hope it'll last longer tis time...

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20050525

muay thai lvl3 #9

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2dae's cheryl n me... skipped, warmed, shadow, 3/4x bag & padwk alt, 3 spars, 50 pumps & crunches...

2dae's spars were SO DAMN GD ^_^
1st round was e 'warm up' round, 2nd round was faster n we gappled but i was thrown -_-" but e last round was e most INTENSE WHACKIN HERE THERE EVERYWARE!!! especially e last 10 secs when we whacked each other lk nobody's biz wahaha

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20050523

問世間情為何物???
只叫人傷身, 傷神, 又傷心...


現在不是戀愛的季節...
而是傷心的季節...


怪不得我從不戀愛...
好可怕... 好恐怖...

20050522

drivin prac #12

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its been XACTLY 1 MTH since i last drove coz no $ & time... n XACTLY 1 MTH 2 my tp... countin down liao...

aniwae did parallel parkin 4 abt 1.5 hrs; it was said 2 b more diff den vertical parkin but my diff was tt i cldnt reali c e rear coz e seat cushN was blkin my view -_-" overall it went quite well thou ve 2 prac a few more times coz it ve 2 b done in 5 mins & vertical parkin in 3 mins durin tp else its IMMEDIATE FAIL [now u noe y sg economy boomin??? coz gov drivin schs earn alot mah] -_-" >_< after tt was cruisin ard 4 1/2 hr den end liao so far so gd hehe... @ least i didnt 4got everythin haha...

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20050521

finali found a fellow cat cammer ~yeah~

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was walkin 2 sls after sch ytd, passed by e lane next 2 tis fashion n there was tis guy cammin a tabby cat... WAH!!! FINALI GOT SUM1 LK ME LIAO; LK 2 CAM CATZ WAHAHAHA seein him cam makes me feel T_T coz I DUN VE A CAM HP NOW!!! [thx 2 tt blardi black pot ass mr 'J'!!!] n tis's e 1st time i saw tt cat!!! meanin e next time i go back he may not b there liao T_T tts y i luv cammin cats coz u nv noe where n when they come n go n tt CAM HPS R E BEST INVENTnS coz we carry em every n aniware we go... but aniwae tt cat brushed against n meowed me w tt guy sittin there lookin haha...

saw a 'zzz' on my frenster juz now n was tinkin who it was til i saw e links; its jc... tink he's hibernatin sumware coz his profile's so plain n mono...

was @ kk's place juz now n after dinner while walkin back there was tis bikin uncle tt kept ringin his bell so we gave him 1/2 of e lane but he stil kept ringin so after he passed us, i threw a push kick [tts cfm cant hit him coz he's outta e range] den e FUNNY THING happened: he kinda lost his balance & bgan wobblin so we were sayin tt 'MUAYTHAI actually ve 氣功 'embedded' in it tt can hit invisibly' or rather tts 'ah joy's 無影腳' [even beta den 黃飛鴻's coz his nid 2 hit but mine dun hit oso can] wahahahaha coz e uncle was quite stead til e kick tt he wobbled... hahahahaha

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20050518

im a dead rat tis time...

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lookin @ my 211 assignment 2 specs... realized tt its MISSION IMPOSSIBLE 2 complete if i dun get FUCKIN STARTED rite now!!! T_T coz it due in wk 13/2nd wk of june [0506~1006]!!!

tot it was sumthin small & havin e god damn 'shld b quite simple 2 do' & 'anithin stil ve mr S 2 help' mentalities... but its stil MI coz theres juz too much thing 2 do...
OMG!!! SUM1 EITHER HELP OR KILL ME!!!
i dun 1 a C in my transcripts...

e god damn assignment 2 specs
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muay thai lvl3 #8

2dae's trainin's lena & me... did padwk & bagwk alt den 2 spars w her & 1 spar w joe ~yeah~ was hit x times on e left leg by her n of coz hit xx times by joe althou there was sum techniq durin e spar but i seemed 2 ve 4gotten tt i can knee/push/kick him @ e close range; oni tot of punchin him on e abs instead of e face -_-" after e 1st spar w her, it was her vs joe n i saw e diff btwn e 3 of us juz lk a food chain...
joe -eat-> lena -eat-> me

but i tink i improved x amt on my sparrin thou my techniq individually r stil not tt gd [push kick & knee r not hard enuf coz i alwaz end up flyin T_T] but aniwae...

I LUV MUAYTHAI!!!
& nv regretted takin it thou i was injured x times durin tis period ^_^

20050512

Affect

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions. It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love wasnt ever mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this: Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart.

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all. Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

In short, Have Faith. Love will always find a way if you believe in it. Avoiding your fears merely makes them stronger. Embrace them and you will see that they are nothing more than mere figments of your imagination. U've to be fair to the person who loves u, if you love him/her, you've got to tell him/her!


taken off my frenster bulletin board posted by 1 of my frenz

hapi bufdae 2 ME!!!

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went 2 make e police report @ 1415 n there til 1700; 2.75 hrs!!! so tirin... but aniwae its done liao... althou i noe chances of me gettin my stuffz back = 0 but hopefully they can find him or watsoeva... juz let tis horrible nitemare pass...

didnt go 4 325; doubt ani1 did -_-"

back @ e gym now til 2200+

tis's how my 21st [oh so impt] bufdae's done
thx 2 those tt msged me on & offline ^_^

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20050511

muay thai lvl3 #7

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2dae's trainin was juz so GOOD!!!
IM LUVIN IT!!! ~YEAH~


cheryl, lena n me trained... had skippin, warmup & shadow [e usuals] den techniq shadow, bagwk, techniq bagwk [where e knee~lin 'tore' e skin off my buanged left knee; now its so raw >_<] after tt was sparrin w cheryl n we hit each other x times, den padwk w joe [lucki no more left knee~lin liao] n sparrin w lena n omg im whacked lk siao again... n got 'flung' off when she grabbed my leg; but oso hit her a few times hehe~ after tt was pumpin n crunches n my neck damn hurts; guess its stil not healed after all thou can turn freely now... oso got bruises on both hips n rite instep...

~OUCH~ so injured [phy, mental, emotN & financial] & brokin poor tis b-dae T_T >_< -_-"

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20050510

b-dae celeb

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had dinner w okasan, thing n kk @ orchard hotel cafe... thou its buffet but e food wasnt tt fantastic but stil we stuff ourselves bloated... e live band @ e other lounge sux; their singin was >_< althou its juz a simple meal im stil quite satisfied w it; w juz a few frenz... no mood 2 create a big din...

stil no news of him... was i real damn fuckin stupid 2 'surrender' all e stuffz den? stil ve 2 more daes 2 his 'deadline' b4 i get harsh & he gets e bad consequences if he appears after tt...

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20050509

m i cheated???!!!

270405
sold my s700i 2 j & he found a m900 on e same nite

050505
handed over e m900 & 2mp cmos cam 4 trade w o2 mini & ixus i

080505
handed over 250 n supposed 2 get e mini & ixus @ nite
no calls or msgs; calls all went 2 vm; msn no response

now
stil no calls or msgs; calls all went 2 vm; msn no response
mia 1+ dae
cases: no rep, hp spoilt, went back 2 jb, hp off

worst case: he zao lo; im CHEATED!!!
stil waitin 4 hopes...

20050508


finali lush has internet radio ~yeah~ althou its not listed under mc's hearnsee pg weirdo but @ least dun ve 2 specially on my hifi when im on e pc juz 2 LUSH ^_^

20050505

HATE RAINY DAES

fuckin hate rainy daes... seem so peaceful when i leave but so destructive when i reach...

go off e bus nearly got splashed 2x by 2 buses
x e rd
slip n fell bangin my head on e flr w pple not helpin me but LUFFIN @ me in e shelter
tokin abt sg pple bein gracious???!!!
FUCK LAR
partial fault on my flip flops tt i dumped 4 another @ funan
leavin me in my berms & tshirt 3/4 soaked
can remove my tshirt but not e berms
typin now sittin on e pair of wet berms
juz 4 30 MINS!!! n off i go... >_<

FUCKIN HATE RAINY DAES
DAMN THOSE TT JUZ STOOD N LUFF
MAY THEIR MOUTHS B FLOODED W ULCERS!!!

20050504

muay thai lvl3 #6

2dae's pt coz NO 1 came... T_T skippin was 8 mins... shadow... alot of padwk tt i kicked til my 2 big toes bleed but i didnt feel a thing... n lastly alittle bagwk... all in 1 hr... tink if i cld ton thru there might b sparrin... but too bad...

used e analgesic rec by my mum; sloan n damn ve a BURNIN sensatN not a WARM sensatN... my shins were BURNIN tt i took of my ankle guards... my hands were BURNIN til i removed my handwraps... even so w e gloves on its lk a SAUNA inside... wah lao eh... lk on FIRE...

so all in all 2dae me n my trainin SUX... my footwk after so long's stil SHIT!!! goin 2 do lotsa shadow @ hm... n stablize my balance n movin momentum...

ARGH!! I FUCKIN SUX!!!