20060430

y ive 2 bear e butt

goin out late w diff ppl
loanin ppl $
chasin ppl $
accept e 'fact/xcuse' tt they cant return when i noe they fuckin earn a deal, get gov pkgs, enjoyin emselves yet tell me they cant return a single cent???!!!

is 50 alot 2 ask???
50 can b spent in a nite out yet not 2 me?
so im supposed 2 b put rite @ e bottom of e pit w all 'other infinite xpenses' pilin up above & juz rot there til infinity 4 my turn or when theres 'enuf' 2 spare 2 return?
but when & how muchs enuf??? how long's long???
tell me can sum1 fuckin tell me???!!!
damn loathe 2 chase pp4 4 $ coz i noe sum dun ve [else wont borrow frm me liao] but sum r juz shit

i tink i shldnt b tt generous/helpful/chivalrous/豪放/講義氣 [i shld b more 'selfish' which i cant] 2 lend ppl $, makin myself broke & miserable when they r merryin/doin wat they 'nid' w e $; but den again i cant juz burn e entire forest down coz 1 tree crushed me flat rite?

contradictin shit

woofy huffy puffy

suddenly it hit me again
every1 does smoke; irregardless whether e cig's in ur mouth
its in ur mouth, u r active
its in e air u breathe, u r passive
u smoke freq u r hook puff
u smoke whilst club u r club puff
u smoke 4 fun/trial u r rookie puff
u smoke 2 look kool sorry u r loser puff
even those u tink dun, oni when they lite up den u noe e true fact tt they do
its been so long since i c ppl ard me puffin away; startin frm 'i oni smoke when i club', 'i share e pack', 'its social' til 'i smoke when i c ppl smoke', 'i smoke when ppl jio me smoke', 'i got can head 4 cheap cigs', 'cant quit lar so long liao'
yet i stil cant accept it; sumtimes when i c em smoke i juz 1 2 grab it frm em & dump it or tink whether i shld delude myself in2 e circle
lame reasons/xcuses i say but den again its their logic so wat can i say
gals can accept guys smoke but guys cant accept gals puffin away
so i juz ive 2 'accept' e fact tt prac all those ard me smoke but they cant take e idea of me probably itchin 2 smoke

but den again im well known 2 b a 乖 beng tt doesnt smoke, cant drink much, dun even say ani f lang xcept 'fuck' wahaha
til now i stil tink i can find 1 tt doesnt puff

so wru dinosaur???!!!


sumtimes i tink im over restrained tt i dun do certain things tt i 1 2 do & e chance's there
i dun dare 2 do tis, i dun dare 2 do tt even tho its not sum big fuck matter; mayb i juz lack e guts & inferiority creeps in
i tell myself 'accept e fact tt u r fat & short' so ive 2 accept e fact tt im short but fat can b trained 2 lean & i oni its possible; juz tt i lack e endurance & discipline
i tot i can b nonchalant but sumhow i cant let myself go or pull myself 2gether;

im a total wreck

小明

chionged 2x tis wk:

thurs @ live impact [central mall]
there was a thai live band there & they were quite good; lotsa english & chinese songs tho but e gals were

dun cha wish ur gf was HOT lyk me!!!

haha bumped in2 2 ppl i knew back there
a thai gal & a local 1/2 thai gal were tokin 2 us @ e table, had 2 jugs of foster w joy & rat

sat @ suba [millenia walk]
its not IN e mall but 'outside' next 2 e office blks... nice place altho e drinks r x but theres a huge db of drinks in there too =) went w joy, terence, george, jj, jj's fren & rat, zack got a jw black label [eh 1st x drink =)] & its finished til e last drop; he was dj_in haha toked abt e fight blah? left @ abt 0100

thai disco @ golden mile
moved over there w joy, rat, george & terence; e music was gd tho 'deafenin' [but i tink sumhow i prefer it over there?] had 3 jugs but i oni drank

REALLY ABIT coz if mix cfm'll ko & i noe it best; DISASTER IN E MAKIN =)

stayed there til closed @ 0400 & while there:
got 'bio_ed' by 3 ts & 1 thai gal; v paiseh lor & v HAPPENIN!!! but not me haha im v 乖 1 altho im a SMALL BENG =p
& [i tink] i 'broke' my fav stripes specs; juz tinkin abt changin lenses now ve 2 change e whole spec if cant repair =(
den back 2 bencoolen eat prata den hm @ 0430+
immediate ko SNORE

20060426

muay thai #92

woke @ 1400
went in e rain
reached e gym oni 2 noe tt im 'red'
achin front & back

skipped, shadow, '4x' bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar w joy, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches, oni don came
stamina dropped alot man
e spars r good; more darin 2 kick & punch but i noe if its w sum1else other than joy i stil stand a v high chance of gettin thrashed

damn tirin & achin so i tink

I MUZ B CRAZY 2 TRAIN ON E '1ST DAY'!!!

20060424

muay thai #91

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 5x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches
can kick w e left leg liao but

im god damn tired

slowly got 2 pick up frm ware i left of...
sucha long journey...

muaythai against drugs 3

selection fights 4 mt world cup [bkk] @ jalan kayu seletar camp @ 220406

amatuer qualifyin rounds started @ 3 & terence, george & jj all made it in2 e finals

@ 1930 e finals kicked off
amatuers was a mix of pro & geared based on e fighters' consent 2 gear or w/o gear; our side was w/o gear:
terence - against jq again & he won altho he was quite shacked w painful legs; now he has elephant legs
george - against a fulang & he lost but it was a good fight, lots of improvements in techniques, stamin & movements but he got bits of his molar knocked out
jj - against a local who looked bigger than him but he was prac thrashed up due 2 insufficient trainin & stamina; ko_ed @ e 2nd round depressin man...

pros started @ 2230
1st fight was a GALS fight btwn a 28 yo thai gal w 62 FIGHTS under her vs a 16 yo local gal whichs her 1st fight
e thai's real good; v good techniques & v swift moves, e local altho young but she ve mt & boxin backgrounds so her punches r good
main event fight was zack vs a canadian, both e same age w v good techniques
zack got a cut above e left eyebrow frm an elbow & he nearly knee_ed e canadian in e head
howeva he won frm a high kick & ko_ed e canadian

congrats 2 all joe, joy & e fighters who won & lost coz e fights r real good w substance; all e trainins & downsizin paid off
makes me so gian 2 fight but den again... no 1 1s 2 fight sian

20060422

0900 ~ 0100

went 2 mit zjh 2 discuss e projs: 1 edu & 1 hr @ 2.5k
back hm 2 change den 2 e spa
rotted ard ard orchard & city hall
met alice, lynn & kk @ city hall
dinner @ suntec juz noodles
den bus_ed down 2 5/10; havent been there 4 6+ mths
drank 2 pints of heineken
ate a egg/cheese prata
cabbed hm
didnt tok much 2 alice; didnt feel like 2, y tok abt unhappy things tho i noe its troublin her


how old u tink she looks?
i noe my face's shiny but tts e spa facial cream not my face oil

got nagged @ e moment i reached hm:
FUCKIN SHIT!!!
I DUN GIVE A FUCK ABT WAT NEWS ON MISSIN PPL GETTIN RAPED OK
IM FUCKIN 22 SOON & YET I DUN GET E FREEDOM TT IM SUPPOSED 2 GET SINCE 16/18/21
DO I VE 2 REPORT 2 U EVERYTHIN & EVERYWARE I GO???!!!
GET A LIFE IF U R TOO FREE WHICH'S DEFINITELY TRUE
I NID MY BREAK K; DUN FUCKIN CTRL ME LIKE A LEASHED DOG
I NOE U R 'CONCERNED' BUT TTS FUCKIN CTRL K
IVE MY MIND I NOE WTF IM DOIN K!!!
ASS
& 4 FUCKIN SAKE DUN ACT LIKE U R SO 'LIBERAL' & 'OPEN MINDED' IN FRONT OF OTHERS WHEN U R NOWARE NEAR THERE; FAKO

20060419

muay thai #90

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar

but i didnt use e left kick durin bag & padwk xcept durin sparrin when 'instinct' takes over

techniques:
jab+x+block+jab+x+left hook
rite low kick+rite kick+left kick
jab+x+xtended x+left hook+rite hook
kick+2x kick
left block+rite kick

but now e left foot's painful =(
& a few ppl came back after a long time

20060417

muay thai #89 + 14 daes

2dae
returned 2 trainin; skippin nearly suffocated me, bagwk was miserable, padwk was juz as bad & sparrin got whacked w all e stamina & reflexes down & bruises appearin =(
guess ive 2 start frm sq 1 again sigh

heres wtf i did 4 e past 2 wks:

150604
back 2 e gym 2 'xchange' e shoes
ran 2km in 10 mins; 'proud' of myself since i flunked 2.4 @ 20+ mins in 04 =)
skipped 10 mins, den shadow, bag & 3x padwk w rat whichs considered lite as compared 2 e 1s joe does
met buckteeth @ hougang kbox, followed by 7 of her frenz
sang quite alot, drank abit of her frens' martell vsop [eh seems lyk e 1st time]
den left @ 0200+ coz they shut down e sys [supposinly close @ 0400 as written on e website =(]

140406
met thing & lynn @ queensway 2 get a pair of runnin shoes; got a pair of new balance @ 97/139 altho i didnt like it v much but nvm =went 2 bugis qb 2 cut my hair again; tis time its real short =)
okasan came hm & e 1st thing she said was 'y tis time u buy e shoes so SMALL???!!!'; i was like 'if i can get bigger size i oso 1 lor ASS' but tis pair stil ve space even w socks &'ll 'xpand' after wears; blame it on me havin small feet k???!!! HAPPY???!!! WTF

120406
back 2 another doc; hes an auth 少林鐵沙掌師傅 失敬失敬 =p
no bandage
跌打酒 4 self rubs
last review
clearance 2 train next wk =)

110406
8th ftt coz e 7th xpired
yes i noe ive drivin 4 1+ yr & i took it 7x liao & i can FUCKIN FLUNK IT!!!
retest on 300506
tried 2 train alittle but results were down; everythins down =(

070406
back 2 e old doc
rubs again
howeva walkin ard gets pains on e lower shin & rite side of foot dunno y
changed back 2 e old med

030406
back 2 e doc; another 1
says i walked too much =p
& he 'tapped' holes on e swell, put on a 'vacuumed' bamboo & 'sucked' out e stagnant blood; DAMN SCARY i tell u tho its painless
change of med

300306
went back 2 e doc
back 2 e rubs; stil painful

280306
hopped 2 e doc & its damn painful; he says its a v bad twist
hopped & 'limped' ard like a joke