lost...

lookin @ those trainin w power, life & energy
lookin @ myself train w/o power, life & energy;
i seemed 2 ve lost myself,
strayed wayward frm ware i started out @,
wanderin off_track...

sumware along e way i lost my vigor 4 muaythai;
trainin 4 e sake of trainin,
trainin juz 2 downsize
lost my power & stamina...

put myself down when i didnt do well,
did nothin actively 2 rectrify it,
juz mellowin -vely

i started muaythai 2 fulfil my luv 4 martial arts,
luved its flexibility,
luved its sleek & lethal moves,
luved its life & vigor on e ring...

bit by bit i got em
but lost myself...
gettin whacked in e ring,
coz i CANT SEE wats in front of me,
coz i CANT APPLY wat i already noe in e ring fights

i simply sux;
bagwk, padwk, sparrin...
so how e HELL m i gona FIGHT in e ring???!!!
definitely not goin up 2 b a clown or punchin bag;

IM GONA FIGHT!!!

muay thai #73

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x spars, 60 pumps, 80 crunches & misc conditNin...

2.x w joy & 1x spar w don ^_^

new techniques:
usin e leg 2 throw
usin e knee hit after grabbin opponent's leg
liftin e opponent leg high
usin e in-out kick

got hit lk nutz, got cornered lk a mouse, mizzed stationary targets, punches & kicks no power, reflexes slow;

all in all: I SUX!!!

how e hell 2 fight???!!!

muay thai lvl4 #20

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 35 leg throws...

2.5x w ray & 0.5x spar w joy ^_^

cldnt c e punches & kicks thrown @ me; mayb its my hair downin me -.- sparrin howeva was...

FUN & INTENSE!!!

internet security

BLOODY FUCKIN HELL!!!

sumtime last yr 2 download real player, i 'signed up' 4 e superpass which i CANCELLED after e 14 dae trial which apparently didnt notify tt its over & ask u if u wana PAY!!! i got billed 1 mth on my card tho; so i

DISTINCTLY, DEFINITELY CANCELLED IT!!!

& checked tt i no long subscribe 2 it & its not reflected in my a/c w em!!!

yet mths til now i stil get billed sgd15 MTHLY amountin sgd100!!!

+ 2 other 'merchants' [1's YAHOO!!!] which i DIDNT VE ANI transactNs w em!!! [stil pendin tho]
so much 4 e 'free xx daes trial & we'll ask if u 1 it' shit...
now my card's cancelled til i get my new # & e bank's goin 2 chase after real
howeva after readin e note tt came w e statement which states tt im 2 report erros w/in 14 daes else e bank'll deem e statement as correct oops... meanin tt my claim mayb unsuccessful >_<
tink i shld check my statements faithfully & not ve ani bankin transactNs overseas xcept local

E INTERNET FINANCE SECTOR'S NV SAFE!!!

rs vs intimacy

Notice that the Heart Line is long and curved up well under the middle finger. A person with this long curvy line can be happy one minute and down the next, and it may not be due to whats happening in the relationship. Emotions fluctuate from moment to moment and run the full psychological range at any time. Each moment is separate from all the others and has its own emotional charge. A relationship with this person can be like a high speed emotional elevator. If he or she is emotionally "down in the basement" don't worry. Very soon the mood will dramatically change and shoot up to the top floor where the party is. The psychological mood changes come and go like the ocean tides and that keeps a relationship interesting.

The Expressive type person with this curved line ending under the middle finger lives in the practical "now". The future is tomorrow and is too far away to worry about. What is happening right now is the most important thing. This nearsightedness tends to make everything at the moment seem more important than future events and activities. Planning for tomorrow's activities are not part of this person's routine today. This often leads to problems in the future but that just insures lots of activities tomorrow and keeps life interesting!

The Expressive person is reactive, demonstrative and rational. She or he can devote full attention to enjoyment of all the senses. This may seem self-indulgent to others but at the same time they are envious of someone who can live and enjoy so much in life. If the middle finger is straight and strong, this Expressive person is not likely to get involved in taking care of other people's needs at the expense of her or his own needs. The Expressive type person is more "me" oriented than the Nurturer type with a Heart Line ending below the index finger (The Nurturer would be more focused on pleasing the partner).

Some words that are often used in psychology to describe the Expressive person are exciting, dynamic, unpredictable, alive, real, vivacious, intense, energetic, and active. A relationship with an Expressive type person is a wild ride!

noe urs too

chicken little says: E SKY'S FALLIN!!!

joy little says: E WORLD'S SHRINKIN!!!

peroration bscit

finali i got all my grades 4 e 10 units;

2 hds + 6 ds + 2 cs

1 d was unxpected; xpected p/c
durin tis 1.5 yrs alot of things happened
had diff classes w diff pple
gained new knowledge
met new pple
new perspectives & insights
too much 2 desc tho
but its been fulfilin

aniwae its over & done w;

back 2 a 失業皇帝 again!!!

bsc in luv

after daes of storm, e sun's finali out w clouds ^_^

thy astro chart

Rising Sign is in 02 Degrees Leo
You love to be the center of attention and you want to appear strong, confident and dominant. You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! Very dignified and honorable, you enjoy the power and privilege, but not the responsibilities, that come with leadership. You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Others impress you only if they have integrity (but wealth, power and influence can also turn your head). You prefer rich, elegant surroundings and possessions, and will try to acquire them as your budget allows. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff!

Sun is in 21 Degrees Taurus.
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.

Moon is in 10 Degrees Libra.
Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work -- you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project -- you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.

Mercury is in 27 Degrees Aries.
Very quick-witted, you are known for being an independent thinker. You love to debate and argue, and are excellent at repartee and battles of wits. At times, however, you act too fast on hastily formed opinions and thus waste a lot of energy defending your rash and sometimes incorrect conclusions. It is perfectly acceptable for you to defend your beliefs with your usual vigor, but try not to take the opinions of others as personal insults.

Venus is in 12 Degrees Taurus.
You are known to be a warm and affectionate person, and you tend to form long- lasting attachments. The reverse of this is that you can also be quite possessive once you have made a commitment. The beauty, luxury and comfort of your surroundings are important to you and you will devote much time and energy to making your home just right. Beware of your tendency toward self-indulgence, especially with respect to eating incorrectly. You also need outside stimuli to get you in gear When things come too easily for you, you can be lazy and indolent.

Mars is in 20 Degrees Scorpio.
Your likes and dislikes are strong and intense, never casual or superficial. You are known for your persistence and willful obsession. Once you have decided on a course of action, you are unstoppable. Your emotional actions tend to be extreme, although you try to keep them muted. You are not quick to anger, you do slow burns. And you tend to release your anger as sarcasm or irony. Beware of your tendency to hold grudges and to be vengeful. When you do fight, or release your internal tensions, you do so body and soul -- you become totally passionate and your outbursts are awesome to behold.

Jupiter is in 12 Degrees Capricorn.
You tend to feel that the only results that are worthwhile are the results that are concrete and demonstrable. You distrust abstract solutions and appreciate measurable achievements. An excellent organizer and planner, you are optimistic as well as practical and realistic about what can and what cannot happen. Very responsible, you consider it a personal weakness to be wrong about anything. This makes you appropriately cautious. You are very efficient but you tend to be cool and detached.

Saturn is in 12 Degrees Scorpio.
You tend to release emotional energies only very reluctantly. This is partly due to your fear of what horrible calamity might occur should they be released -- your emotions are terribly complicated and intense. Try not to repress these energies entirely, however, or you will succumb to negative and destructive forms of compulsive behavior. Give yourself the freedom to look awkward or silly once in a while. The relief you feel will be quite therapeutic and the embarrassment (whether it is real or imagined) will pass quickly.

Uranus is in 12 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 01 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 00 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 06 Degrees Gemini.
You will consciously seek out many different contacts with others throughout your life. Many of these will be of very short duration, not necessarily because you're fickle, but just because you always seem to be more excited by the prospect of meeting someone new rather than prolonging your present relationships. At any rate, you will learn something new from almost everyone you come across -- intellectual stimulation is what you crave from others. You will be well known to neighbors and relatives, partly due to your curiosity about what they're doing -- you delight in keeping up-to-date about the latest news (and gossip).

get urs here

muay thai lvl4 #19

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 35 leg throws...

did a hi-kick when sparrin w joy & got 'thrown' by his low-kick -_-;;; actuali high kick requires e other leg 2 b stable in case it misses e opponent & he throws a kick...

other den tt trainin was quite gd, juz tt im tired & wasnt in e mood 2 train..

homo sapiens firewall

y pple set firewalls on others?
y pple reject others?

i do reject sum pple on certain basis tt r 'harmless'; it doesnt affect me in aniwae when i boot em outta my life but i take it as they xist due 2 connectNs

but sum set up e fws 4 reasons unknown 2 others [oni known 2 emselves] & block all 'invites', pple outta their lives; they juz 1 2 b seclusive or elusive & oni open 'ports' 2 certain pax

but when a person sets a fw on another, wateva tt person says it'll b immediate in-out 4 e other coz they ve 'rejected' all 'communicatNs'; 2 em its nothin, tis's even worse when its duplex;

no way can ani communicatNs occur whether w hubs, switches, routers, bt, irda, wlan 11/54/108, wap, gprs, 3g, 56k, bb, cable, t1, t3, fiber optic, cat5, coaxial, wateva

howeva in e edu world, doin tis'll oni land urself in shit; often docents 'perceive' students understand when they dun qn & students dun qn 2 'save time' or mayb lazy. in e end theres no active communicatNs & it juz dies down -_- mayb lecs shld b more interactive, colorful, entertainin instead of dead reads frm e slides

juz sumthin on communicatNs based on an event tt happened 2dae

either e world's gettin colder or pple r gettin colder

muay thai lvl4 #18

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x 5 mins padwk, 3x 5 mins spars, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 throw crunches...

did 2.5x spars w ray den 0.5x w joy...

now tts called 'SPARRIN'!!!

blithe neoteric yr

@ e gym: wked, rained & trained
@ ms: saw my 'dear' cousin, hide & seek, food huntin, snooker & bowl waitin
@ paradiz: pool & alcohol
@ dhoby ghaut mrt: mizzed & chose 2 miz e trains
@ bugis: waited 4 cabs, called 1 & back hm

tis new yr's indeed v quiet w oni 1 person w me: james ^_^
thx 4 spendin it w me; e last 4 hrs of 05 & 1st 3 hrs of 06

drank little; 1 nite orange [tasted lk f&n orange] & 1 white strobe


last sunset of 2005