suppressed

was readin tis thread on kt: loud mouth parents gives higher chances of teenage rebels? & reality came back 2 me...

how suppressed my life's... coz there r so mani things i wana do but i cant...
how restricted im... coz i cant do things pple of my age over e yrs ve done...
how autistic im... coz im not even communicatin @ hm...

not tt i dun 1 2 comm but its hard 2 comm when u & tt person has a 37 yrs gap altho tt person's ur closest...
how 2 tok when in less than 5 mins tt person'll clamp u down w a '我吃得鹽比你吃的米還多' kinda attitude...
when tt person toks 2 u in a demandin tone, xpectin u 2 do wateva she 1s...
when in tt person's eyes u r 'bad', altho its an obvious fact 2 others tt u r 'good'...
when wateva u do, tt person tinks its nv enuf...
when in front of others she's 'gd' 2 u but @ e back its e opp...
when pple 'tok' 2 her she'll 'listen' but after tt she'll turn back 2 u & say 'wat u cant tell me, ve 2 tell em & let em tell me???!!! let em tink i dunno how 2 teach u???!!!'
when tt person sees her pride/'face' more impt than u...
when tt person says 'everythin i do's 4 u...' but u cant feel it...
when tt person's doin all tt she dun allow u 2 do juz bcoz she's an elder...
when tt person says 'i give u alot of freedom' when shes stil chainin u...
when tt person did all tt she dun allow u 2 do when she was @ ur age...
when tt person says 'when u r 16/18/21, i'll let u blah blah blah' but it nv comes true...

altho pple'll say 'u r e oni 1, tts y...'; i noe its e fuckin truth but im an ADULT!!!
i ve a fuckin brain 2 tink altho there r alot of things i havent xperienced coz she dun fuckin give me e space/freedom/chance 2 xperience it;

how e fuck do e xpect a bird 2 fly outta e cage when u close e door or chain it w e door open???!!!...

altho i noe she means well but shldnt there b a certain space 4 me???!!!

tts y when shes hm, im out;
when shes in e livin rm, im in my rm...
no mitin = no comm = no tokin = no miscomm = no conflict = no argument = no unhappiness = peace

luckily ive e gym [bags 2 whack], a blog [2 type outta emotNs], pple bearable 2 me, me bein self restrainin else i wld ve bcame a delinquent liao...

I FEEL SO SUPPRESSED!!! SO STRESSED!!! CAN SUM1 PULL ME OUTTA TIS FUCKIN SHIT HOLE???!!!