woofy huffy puffy

suddenly it hit me again
every1 does smoke; irregardless whether e cig's in ur mouth
its in ur mouth, u r active
its in e air u breathe, u r passive
u smoke freq u r hook puff
u smoke whilst club u r club puff
u smoke 4 fun/trial u r rookie puff
u smoke 2 look kool sorry u r loser puff
even those u tink dun, oni when they lite up den u noe e true fact tt they do
its been so long since i c ppl ard me puffin away; startin frm 'i oni smoke when i club', 'i share e pack', 'its social' til 'i smoke when i c ppl smoke', 'i smoke when ppl jio me smoke', 'i got can head 4 cheap cigs', 'cant quit lar so long liao'
yet i stil cant accept it; sumtimes when i c em smoke i juz 1 2 grab it frm em & dump it or tink whether i shld delude myself in2 e circle
lame reasons/xcuses i say but den again its their logic so wat can i say
gals can accept guys smoke but guys cant accept gals puffin away
so i juz ive 2 'accept' e fact tt prac all those ard me smoke but they cant take e idea of me probably itchin 2 smoke

but den again im well known 2 b a 乖 beng tt doesnt smoke, cant drink much, dun even say ani f lang xcept 'fuck' wahaha
til now i stil tink i can find 1 tt doesnt puff
so wru dinosaur???!!!


sumtimes i tink im over restrained tt i dun do certain things tt i 1 2 do & e chance's there
i dun dare 2 do tis, i dun dare 2 do tt even tho its not sum big fuck matter; mayb i juz lack e guts & inferiority creeps in
i tell myself 'accept e fact tt u r fat & short' so ive 2 accept e fact tt im short but fat can b trained 2 lean & i oni its possible; juz tt i lack e endurance & discipline
i tot i can b nonchalant but sumhow i cant let myself go or pull myself 2gether;

im a total wreck