muay thai #112

spinoff #1: suddenly ive a few projs so it means more wk, xp & $
but i cant get e design feel; i dun seem 2 b able 2 feel e design tt i 1 2 do mayb im not cut out 4 it

spinoff #2: was watchin e news abt a couple got mis_hacked den my dowager asked me:
d: if sum1 1 2 hack u how
m: run lar! parang leh i got no metal arms/legs leh
d: den u learn muaythai 4 wat
m: muaythai nv teach weapons lor, u 1 me use wat? tree branch, bottle or trash bin; tink i BRUCE LEE ar
d: if no weapon
m: c lor, c tt person how tall, big, heavy; if dino oso run lar else do summer_slam i die liao lor; ve martial arts backgrd if fight & get caught, v troublesome 1
d: will get caught 1 meh
m: of coz lar heard pple say if got backgrd even self_defence oso'll ve warnin coz dangerous
a mother tt watched too much BRUCE LEE w me -.-

aniwae skipped, shadow, 7x bagwk, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches
wasnt in e mood 2 train; cant get e feel
hope im not gettin sick & tired of it
toked w ray; kinda constructive
i wana live e life i used 2 2 yrs back;
doin watever i 1, buyin watever i 1, eatin & drinkin watever i 1 anitime & aniware

sun
woke, ate, slacked
met james 4 pool; tink i cant play e norm way [bendin low down w e cue below e chin]; i suit more standin higher w a full eye view; tt way i dun feel compressed & restrained
went 2 ps swensens & ate e 8-scoops earthquake =)
damn long since i ate ice cream & @ tt large amt lol
he said i look 頹廢;
i tink i do sumtimes but im doin wat i tinks wat i 1 2 do now;
try 2 build my 'career' xperimentin w wat i noe & dunno settlin down 4 e rest of my wkin life

sat
back 2 e gym earlier
ate & slacked
met san @ sunshine 2 hunt beads
up 2 ps spotlight 4 2 hrs huntin 4 more
dinner @ 海星 chix rice w 2 power shuts

fri
wasted on slackin @ hm w no entertainment

靈異事件!!!

230706 [b4 7th mth]

zzz @ 0500
left e pc on coz downloadin stuffs
woke @ 0700
saw e pc & monitor off includin e power plugs
BUT I DIDNT OFF IT!!!

1 2 treat ppl well but they dun reciprocate
once's disappointin, twice's maddenin
dun say i dun give treats; i gave but u chose 2 give it up
4 reasons sumwat fucked up

u dun bother 2 call/msg
but make me wait all dae long

U TINK IVE ALL E FUCKIN TIME IN E WORLD JUZ 2 WAIT 4 U?

when u r enjoyin urself; doin things tt u said otherwise
wtf do u take me 4?

sum1 2 listen 2 ur nags, askin me how but u dun do wat i say so wat u 1 me 2 do?
i can oni call u 犯賤

muay thai #111

no trainin
insomnia hits in after nites til e sun rises
got e end payment but no increment =(
goin 2 do e chinese ver + e shrc site
more $ = more demandin wk
guess my 'job' 4 e yr's settled

oni ray & me
skip, warmup, shadow spar, 4x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar, pumps, crunches & leg raises
not v tired but increase in bruises

我最偉大的作品

2-3 mths of shared wk, designin, redesignin, conflictin
direct but inconstructive criticism
bein called piece of shit
nites of doin til 05/0700 e next dae
@ last its done
tho i duno wat they tink abt it
but its my limit

muay thai #109/10

wed
skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 4x padwk, 10 mins spar, pumps, crunches & leg throws

tue
cycled til e seafd centre
looked 4 img 4 e site
plannin 2 go 4 a break w okasan; 2 yrs since i last stepped outta sg
mayb chiangmai?

mon
zzz @ 0500+ woke @ 1500+ & ran down e gym
shadow, 4x bagwk, tech spar, 3x spar, pumps & crunches

& i swear 1 dae im gona whack e shit outta those 2 cockroaches!!!

I NID A BREAK FRM ALL E FUCKED UP THINGS!!!

muay thai #107/8

trainin wont b same since lena & ray dropped frm e sky 6 mths ago
learned alot these mths; c u in 6 mths time

wed
been doin e website; came out w a few new map designs
won e germany-italy match lol
zzz, woke & lunched
back 2 e gym
bot e nite's match
trainin was lena's last & by joe
4x bagwk, 4x padwk, 3x spar, pumps & crunches
my punches & kicks r slow in retractin =(
went 2 paradiz 2 pool w kk; won 1st 3 rounds but lost last 3: e last round was kelong =/
will it b e result 4 2nite's match?

tues
redesigned e website; shrank & recolored it
mizzed e bn 20gb sony egg mp3 =(
zzz & woke late
bot e comics
den back 2 e gym

mon
skipped, shadow, bagwk, padwk, spar, pumps & crunches
got whacked =(
got my redbull & beer chang singlets =)

muay thai #105/6

thu
cont w e website didnt zzz til 800+
reached & got nasty comments like e uni pg looks like a piece of shit
colors dull & mono
images no meanin
text spacin & caps inconsistent
juz duno wtf he 1s; everytime i go he says diff things
zzz in e gym; feel like hangover =(

wed
skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 4x padwk, 4x spar, 50 pumps, 60 crunches & 20 punchin crunches
did 1 min drills of 170 punches, 60 rite kicks, 54 left kicks, 70 push kicks
got whacked durin sparrin

tues
trapped e whole dae hm doin e site
& got nagged irritatin

mon
skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 4x padwk, 4x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches
got hit @ e left elbow area by z's 'low kick' bloody aa guy sux
hesitant 2 use push kick coz mostly'll hit wrong area =(
looked @ e odds & once again predicted wrongly; guess im really a wc anti-radar =(

muay thai #104

england-sweden 2-2
paraguay-trinidad 2-0

yeah i won $8.5 lol after winnin 10.5 - 10 = 0.5

2nite bettin on argentina-holland a-a, tg 5 & portugal-mexico por win
hope can win more lol
after 2nite i'll b ipodless sigh

zzz @ 0500 after e eng-swe match
woke @ 1000 2 go 2 issc
got stuffs 2 change & higher probability of + $
nua @ e gym & damn tired 2 train

shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 1x spar w lena & 2x spar w joy
got whacked as usual; @tack sux

gym was quite bz coz got new class & ppl buyin stuffs

muay thai #103

joy's down so trainin was by joe e devilish commando
skip, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 4x padwk, 3x spar w joe, 1x spar w lena, 40 pumps, 60 crunches & 20 punchin crunches

got hit x times but den sumhow im not calm enuf 2 c, analyse & counter; i juz anihow whack whichs damn fuckin bad after learnin 4 2 yrs =(

sun
back 2 sentosa; ate duck rice 4 breakfast
went 2 coaste & didnt pay a single cent coz e guy 4got lol
down 2 cntown food st 4 dinner; ate til damn full
walked ard den back 2 bugis, ate e moo² ice-cream & bot 2 sb
bet on brazil-australia draw; australia really ran but damn lost =(

0300: e big flood of e gym
kitchen h2o pipe burst & flooded e kitchen, joy's rm, gym
joy's big toe got hit by e situp bench =(

sat
sent e hd 2 sls; tried a usb case but cldnt wk
so sent 4 data recovery; hope 2 get sumthin back but @ e same time $ fly
en route 2 sls passed thru og & bot 1 op tshirt, boardshorts & 2 kappa wce flipflops
i noe im supposed 2 save but i cant resist coz they r so damn cheap; especially e kappa wce flipflops @ 39 instead of 60

fuckin hell

helpin u; makin myself poor/broke/miserable =

when im empty i get dumped
nv bothers 2 call/reply; r u tt fuckin bz?

fuckin ass

every1's broke xcept me ya rite
u r broke ya rite
u r broke coz u brought it upon urself; squanderin watever u ve
spendin on things 2 'boost' ur ego & lendin urself in debts
ve u ever tot 4 me when u squandered ur own $? NO
i duno where e hell ur $ went w/o 2 wks u r fuckin amazin & borrowed immediately after tt
ve u ever tot 4 me when u squandered e $ borrowed? NO
u said u r broke but all tt uve done tells me otherwise; how e fuck do u xpect me 2 blieve u r broke & lend/not chase u?
i cant get past myself 2 cont gettin exploited by u coz u noe i cant bear 2 reject u
ive said it many times: if u dun ve $ i wont chase but when i noe uve & u juz fuckin dun wana return me i'll hound u down
u dun give a fuckin damn abt me so y shld i?

when i nided help wtf were u?
zzz like a pig or havin fun & callin me early in e am juz say 'can u lend me $50' or 'can u help me return blah $50' & 'i'll return u asap'
enuf of those bullshit crap

u ignore me when i said i'll stop lendin u coz ive had enuf of it
u ignore me when i ask if uve $ 2 return when i noe u ve but u chose not 2 but do sumthinelse w it
pushin it away w 'when i sell my stuff i'll return u' which nv ever comes true
u alwaz push me rite 2 e bottom, not carin a damn, xpectin me 2 accomodate u w my $ alot lesser than wat u ve
alwaz puttin others [ppl & things] above me wat m i???
ur walkin atm? ur walkin $ mine? ur walkin $ printer?
dun xpect me 2 borrow frm others juz 2 pull myself thru; im not u w ur thick pig skin cloudin ur useless brain

so wat if u r good @ gamin? u dun fuckin earn a livin
tell me u earn little? well coz u fuckin dun 1 2 look @ e higher paid jobs i sent 2 u
is it my fault? NO its ur own fuckin fault

i wonder how e hell cld ive stuck w u 4 8 yrs;
mayb its time 2 end since no 1 ever lasted thru it
bein fuckin taken 4 granted
i feel fuckin used, fuckin ignored, fuckin dead 2 u

im sick & tired;
i rather not ve u
return wat u owe & fuck outta my life

muay thai #102

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 leg throws

my punchin sux
my push kicks sux
my stamina sux
i sux

tinkin whether 2
1. go back gitm & let jack try 2 pull e data
2. buy a usb enclosure & pull myself
3. go directly 2 achieva/seagate & get em 2 pull
all'll cost $ juz a mata of how much

so broke liao stil ve 2 spend but e datas really v³ impt, cant afford 2 lose =(

muay thai #101

fixed e ipod hd on sat & gona sell it off liao; enuf's enuf =)
but e seagate 200gb crashed on sun & its a major crash!!!
bios on/off can detect, cant boot 2 xp, xp cd cant access, no chkdsk, 4 partitions 1 full 1 empty & its not even 3 mths old!!!
bot another samsung 80gb hope can recover & backup there b4 1:1

sigh 真他馬衰!!!

shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2.5x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 leg throws and im god damn xhausted =( stamina goin down? stil coughin & sore throat w e needle eye

muay thai #100

brought e ipod back 4 service; it totally DIED again =(

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 leg throws

e bruise on mon's xpandin like a map damn

a few ppl came back & a couple of em juz piss me off; fighters-but-cant-make-it wanabe =
havin a sore throat - turnin 2 a cough now; mayb its coz of e fried chix wing i ate last nite =\

muay thai #99

zzz 10 hrs
woke w a call frm zhang askin me 2 grab e june slot 2nite @ 00:00; hope i can get it

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

got a big bruise on e rite calf frm andrew =tt guy kicks like hes kickin a damn soccer ball, likes 2 do e roundhse back elbow & moves r predictable

lucky nv spar w sofy; hes juz a mohammed ali wanabe

suntan after 21 days

went suntan w kk & lynn
woke up late; oni zzz 4+ hrs den cont zzz @ e beach & got quite tan =)
bumped in2 kokie @ e market
after tt went 2 sls 2 fix e ipod; hope can fix else ve 2 get a new 1 =(
dinner, went 2 city link & bot a pair of braziliano praia @ 50 frm num; tink i muz b crazy but i kinda like it so hmm
walked ard den hm

muay thai #98

skipped yawnin, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

trainin was 1/2 ? dunno y
sparred w lena, hadri & joy
got punched a few x by hadri
& omost push kicked him @ e wrong spot -.-
omost sprained my rite ankle when bumped in2 sofy idlin @ e ropes, obstructin traffic =lena got mad & whacked him when they 'sparred'

no 1 came 4 advance so left early
joe & brenda sent me 2 bugis =)
dinner & 2 drinks den hm

aniwae i passed e ftt 2x tis round as compared 2 e 7x back den =(
next tp @ 300806; long way 2 go man

damn hate it when ppl put emselves way b4 me when I shld b on e top;
no 1 ever tinks wat kinda shit im in when they r enjoyin emselves &
nothin ever fulfils as said:

THEY R ALL LIES LIES LIES

muay thai #97 && e v borin wkend

blur e whole dae
detox dae #2; juz as bad
skip, warmup, shadow spar, 6x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches
now? blur frm e kicks on both sides w a painin blue/black on e rite shin =(
did 2 rounds of e ftt 400 qns, 'grades' improvin, goin 2 more rounds 2nite
tmr am ftt liao & I 1 2 PASS!!!
tmr goin bladin/cyclin

sun
met kk @ harborfront
e moment we stepped in2 sentosa it rained & even more heavier when we reached siloso beach = no suntan =(
back 2 her hm nua
den bugis 4 dinner
nua @ breko
back hm w thing

sat
waited 4 tt idiotic stupid pig @ somerset mrt 4 1 hr =[
den back 2 e gym 2 get e bikes
cycled & got ride_d frm xl tt kept screamin '50KGS!!!'
cycled back 2 e gym
ate a drank alot of fluid den ls @ hm =*

muay thai #96

cycled abit
2x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar w joy, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punches
was literally a PUNCHIN BAG 4 him =either he slowed or i managed 2 c but stil not fast enuf 2 block much less say counter =x

- ko -

sucha eventful 1 wk lol

ok im god damn lazy/tired/shacked 2 update so heres e past 1 wk:

tues
zzz @ 0400+
woke @ 1300+
reached e gym @ 1700+
aaren told me his it fren's lookin 4 ppl 2 continue his legacy
hope 2 get it = more projs = more xp/portfolio = more $$$ =)

mon
zzz @ 0500+
woke @ 0800+
met zjh & got 1/2 of e $ =)
continue w wk
blur e whole dae snore
no trainin; no 1 came & too tired
prac dozed off aniware i lied on & thing came 2 use e pc so zzz late =[

sun
zzz @ 0600+
woke @ 1000+
sneezed e whole nite & sweated alot whilst zzz =(
mahjong again in e pm lol
lost most of e rounds
hm @ 2000+ 1/2 dead frm e sneezin & lack of zzz
prata w thing @ 2300+
ko

sat
back 2 e gym 2 fix e netwk
wonder y hwz ppl r so critical abt newbies askin redundant qns in e forums; isnt e damn forum 4 ppl 2 ask & discuss qns???!!! i did do netwkin in tp but i had nv setup ani so im askin which they didnt ans directly but kept shootin @ me =\ is tis wat e xperienced r supposed 2 do??? 2 push ppl down based on their egoistic knowledge??? fuck lar uve xp doesnt means u can push ppl down; im neither dumb nor a specialist, juz cfmin sum stuffs aniwae new netwkin products can b managed by common ppl not necessary e SPECIALISTS tt charge sky high but give shitty crap
aniwae e netwks up after fixin & troubleshootin
YEAH MY VIRGIN NETWK lol
dinner @ gm w e guys, xl & kbkb
met lynn @ bugis
went back 2 xl place 4 overnite mahjong
won & lost

fri
went 4 e makeover fotoshoot w mother
muaythai style + china 少爺 style lol

bumped in 2 lynn & xl whilst huntin 4 food
pooled w james, xl, kbkb & lynn
& he won hands down lol
thing came 2 zzz lol

thurs
went back 2 sls 2 get e parts
spent 8 hrs fixin up e 2 pcs but they r wkin as good as new juz tt e fan's abit noisy lol
MY VIRGIN DIY PCS lol

wed
gym pc broke down after a big blackout; hd cldnt boot
dismantled & tested, got james down
in e end:
hd spoilt, 'new' mb ram slots unstable, monitor down_ed suddenly, + ram
no trainin =(

wtf 2 grad 1.5 yrs lata in mid 07???!!!

it wasnt until i finally got e fuckin reply after 3 emails over 3 wks tt my case'll b 'transfered' 2 e grad office & tt my nominated grad's MID 07!!! = grad 1.5 yrs lata -.- wtf either they dun ve brains or they failed their maths or dunno wat fuck they r doin =( i enrolled in mid 04 w 1.5 yrs xemptN & stil nid FUCKIN 3 YRS 2 complete???!!! !#$%^&*+@

muay thai #95

zzz @ 0400
mod 4 layouts; 1 got thru =)
cycled frm e gym 2 e end den back in 50 mins; ez way there tuf way back w my jellied legs =feel like tryin out e cable boarding; looks cool 2 b glidin on h2o
skipped, shadowed, 4x bagwk, tech spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches + 30 punches

techniques:
jab+x+block+knee counter vs 2x block+elbow+knee
jab+x+block+push vs 2x block+elbow+knee
many other elbow & knee techniques

悠長週末

sun
zzz @ 0300
lazy 2 wake up 2 go suntannin @ sentosa w kk, lynn, kbkb & his fren; in e end dragged myself there
sentosa changed alot since i last went abt 5+ mths ago; im a mountain turtle
they go every sun lor but no 1 call me -.-
sat @ coastes; tanned frm 1100+ - 1600+
zzz on e bus back
ate & puked
pooled


sat
sang til 0400
zzz @ 0600
woke @ 1030+
back 2 e gym all wet in a SUPER HEAVY RAIN -.-
blur e whole dae
went 2 suntec w brenda
ate a full dinner
back hm hungry & ate 2 egg tarts -.-
ko_ed whilst watch 'black mask 2' not bad juz tt it didnt make it in2 e sg cinemas back den

fri
went back 2 sls 2 change mp3
lunched @ gmc w joy & kk @ 1500+
drank mac banana milkshake
dinner @ bugis steamboat w kk, lynn & kbkb @ 1730 - 1930, saw 李佳薇 & susilo there
went 2 hark music w em, not too bad juz tt e 'host' had abt 1/2 hr of crap
got sabo_ed 2 go on STAGE -.-
went 2 kbox ms @ 2200+ & e 2 of em froze there wahaha
was iced on e surface but ok internally wahaha


HAPPY BDAE 2 ME!!!

thurs
went 2 sls 2 get a aigo 256 mp3 @ 59 4 joy; all functionin xcept e centre play/pause button tts problematic
back 2 e gym
cycled; tink i dun suit geared bikes coz e chain'll drop/jam when i change gears
called zjh abt e proj & got 'commented' again; shall do another mod 4 if it stil doesnt get thru:
i QUIT since hes oso not v keen on takin me up juz tt im 'CHEAP'
i landed up @ golden mile 4 my 'b-dae countdown' DRINKIN w th & joy lol

wed
went back 2 e doc
got e rite elbow massaged, said i 'pulled' it & its swollen now
e left ankle was acupunctured w a needle & heat infused thru it 2 e ankle
toked a lot w e master
didnt train

覺得自己沒用
幫不了要幫的人
只能旁站著看
做不了要做的事
只能在那發夢
我到底有甚麼用
到底能做甚麼

muay thai #94

warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 6x 1/2 padwk, 6x 1/2 grapplin, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

durin grapplin rite elbow got tugged & it sorta ve e 'pulled outta e socket' feel =(
durin sparrin w joy got kicked @ e left heel bone & i nearly FELL outta e ring; potential #5 =|(

guess tmr ive 2:
go back 2 doc
go look 4 glass frame makers 2 make a new frame
go back 2 畫一 2 ask abt e chess set
look 4 sudoku books
look 4 new comics/thrillers
eat dinner @ jack's place

hartache

AFTER

BEFORE

had it 4 abt 3 yrs, juz took it out 2 cam, supported it w a pillow but stil it landed on e floor w a crash =(

new show on axn abt 2 bros 'slainin' supernatural beins as they search 4 their missin father whos searchin 4 'e thing' tt killed their mum, scared e freak outta me; tink my guts r shrinkin as i get older or shldnt i watch it @ 0200???

my eyes

stil got 1 more pair [metalic blue frame tt dazed me everytime so seldom wear] made in 03 but got crushed on e geylang st back den =specs specs: R -100 - 175 L -75 -200

i tink ive super weird eyes:
03-04 when i didnt wear specs my rite eye myopia +25 but astigmatism -100, left eye myopia -25 astigmatism -100
04-06 geeky wearer everydae my rite eye myopia -25 but astigmatism +75 [x2 leh!!!], left eye myopia +25 astigmatism +50

mayb diff specs shops ve diff ways of determinin? coz all were made @ 4 pairs were made @ diff shops; 03 @ slt, 04 @ bj ian optic, 05 @ bj eyeplay & 06 @ toa payoh asia optic

so's wearin specs good or dun wear beta? i dun wear -astigmatism i wear +astigmatism altho myopia ± on both eyes when multi_coat's supposed 2 reduce it

but i like my new specs altho its pressin down on my left ear =went back 2 e 跌打 after collectin e specs, e heel bone area isnt good, shld ve gone back earlier =\ aniwae he 'suctioned' e blood again, now bandaged til next wed =(

blur liao

muay thai #93

@ 1st we tot there wasnt ani1 comin den every1 started comin slowly

started late so ended late

skipped, warmup, shadow, 6x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches, 30 punchin crunches & misc trainin

e left ankle stil isnt good, did e left high kick & e bone on e rite side [heel/calcaneus bone] hit e padwk & tt was god damn PAINFUL!!! =(

mayb ve 2 go back 2 e doc liao since after over 1 mth its stil not ok =(
juz now kent e aia financial planner called 2 ask 2 mit so tt he can tell/'psycho' me more abt his job which i rejected but hes quite persistent =\ wait til he calls again which hopefully he wont

gettin my new specs tmr whichs a hartache @ 110 w multi_coat, but i like e frame, in fact it was e 1st i picked after thing & i returned back 2 e shop, ve e levi's look =} cant find nice geeky frames @ 50 liao; either left those metalic frames tt makes me dizzy or those plain dull frames =|

colinandkero.blogspot.com

tis wks theres a new blog tt surfaced:

colinandkero.blogspot.com

its actually a luv blog abt e 2 gays
there r many flamers, spammers, anti-gays tokin abt it onsite & forums
howeva if they dun like it/find it disgustin,

DUN GO DEN!!!
U GO COZ U R 8GUA!!!
U SPAM COZ U R BOLIAO!!!

but den i admire em
but i cant say they r wrong coz in tis world theres no absolute rite or wrong
moreva im neither here nor there; im a 妖怪
they dare 2 say their luv 4 each other
they r direct & true 2 each other
they dare 2 luv each other
which norm/heter ppl OSO DUN DARE!!!
how mani norm/heter couple can do tt???

WHICHS Y SUMTIMES GAYS/LES R MORE 'RESPECTABLE' THAN OTHERS
they r juz like norm ppl, can eat, wk, play, zzz, everythin; juz tt they like e same sex
heter/norm couples oso fuck wat, so wats abt e big deal abt gay/les fuckin???
norm guys can b more perverted by rapin e v young bb gals 2 e v old grandmas k

norm ppl'll do tis:
they'll tink of e acceptance/rejection %age
they'll tink of techniques/tacties
everythin they do's conditional; 'u do xx% den i'll do yy%'
all they'll do's juz TINK TINK TINK 4 infinite time [which they tink its logical] b4 they decide 2 make tt 1 step which can end up w:
1. happy endin
2. 1 of em gone liao, tired of waitin
3. rejection

wah lao eh 1 den 1, dun 1 say dun 1
dun 'eh', 'erm', 'i...'
unless u noe really got no chance den juz take it as a dream
if u tink can make it den go 4 it lar
get rejected oso wont die lor
as tho e sky'll crash down on u
as tho ppl'll look down on u & say tt u r a despo
juz take it as it is, tink until head big or burst oso no use
e forest's god damn big, surely theres a tree tt u can find

thing asked me wat m i, i said '?'
sumtimes i like XX sumtimes i like XY i guess it boils down 2 e ppl im w @ tt period, environment & happenins
but wat m i really? i dunno, so how m i goin 2 b w ani1?
but den again, if theres a chance & it wont backfire i'll go 4 it than juz
FUCKIN ROT THERE TINK ABT DUNNO WAT SHIT; SO INCONSTRUCTIVE

天涯何處無芳草 只是遍地都是草
花落滿地無人看 只有你我在猜想

y ive 2 bear e butt

goin out late w diff ppl
loanin ppl $
chasin ppl $
accept e 'fact/xcuse' tt they cant return when i noe they fuckin earn a deal, get gov pkgs, enjoyin emselves yet tell me they cant return a single cent???!!!

is 50 alot 2 ask???
50 can b spent in a nite out yet not 2 me?
so im supposed 2 b put rite @ e bottom of e pit w all 'other infinite xpenses' pilin up above & juz rot there til infinity 4 my turn or when theres 'enuf' 2 spare 2 return?
but when & how muchs enuf??? how long's long???
tell me can sum1 fuckin tell me???!!!
damn loathe 2 chase pp4 4 $ coz i noe sum dun ve [else wont borrow frm me liao] but sum r juz shit

i tink i shldnt b tt generous/helpful/chivalrous/豪放/講義氣 [i shld b more 'selfish' which i cant] 2 lend ppl $, makin myself broke & miserable when they r merryin/doin wat they 'nid' w e $; but den again i cant juz burn e entire forest down coz 1 tree crushed me flat rite?

contradictin shit

woofy huffy puffy

suddenly it hit me again
every1 does smoke; irregardless whether e cig's in ur mouth
its in ur mouth, u r active
its in e air u breathe, u r passive
u smoke freq u r hook puff
u smoke whilst club u r club puff
u smoke 4 fun/trial u r rookie puff
u smoke 2 look kool sorry u r loser puff
even those u tink dun, oni when they lite up den u noe e true fact tt they do
its been so long since i c ppl ard me puffin away; startin frm 'i oni smoke when i club', 'i share e pack', 'its social' til 'i smoke when i c ppl smoke', 'i smoke when ppl jio me smoke', 'i got can head 4 cheap cigs', 'cant quit lar so long liao'
yet i stil cant accept it; sumtimes when i c em smoke i juz 1 2 grab it frm em & dump it or tink whether i shld delude myself in2 e circle
lame reasons/xcuses i say but den again its their logic so wat can i say
gals can accept guys smoke but guys cant accept gals puffin away
so i juz ive 2 'accept' e fact tt prac all those ard me smoke but they cant take e idea of me probably itchin 2 smoke

but den again im well known 2 b a 乖 beng tt doesnt smoke, cant drink much, dun even say ani f lang xcept 'fuck' wahaha
til now i stil tink i can find 1 tt doesnt puff
so wru dinosaur???!!!


sumtimes i tink im over restrained tt i dun do certain things tt i 1 2 do & e chance's there
i dun dare 2 do tis, i dun dare 2 do tt even tho its not sum big fuck matter; mayb i juz lack e guts & inferiority creeps in
i tell myself 'accept e fact tt u r fat & short' so ive 2 accept e fact tt im short but fat can b trained 2 lean & i oni its possible; juz tt i lack e endurance & discipline
i tot i can b nonchalant but sumhow i cant let myself go or pull myself 2gether;

im a total wreck

小明

chionged 2x tis wk:

thurs @ live impact [central mall]
there was a thai live band there & they were quite good; lotsa english & chinese songs tho but e gals were

dun cha wish ur gf was HOT lyk me!!!

haha bumped in2 2 ppl i knew back there
a thai gal & a local 1/2 thai gal were tokin 2 us @ e table, had 2 jugs of foster w joy & rat

sat @ suba [millenia walk]
its not IN e mall but 'outside' next 2 e office blks... nice place altho e drinks r x but theres a huge db of drinks in there too =) went w joy, terence, george, jj, jj's fren & rat, zack got a jw black label [eh 1st x drink =)] & its finished til e last drop; he was dj_in haha toked abt e fight blah? left @ abt 0100

thai disco @ golden mile
moved over there w joy, rat, george & terence; e music was gd tho 'deafenin' [but i tink sumhow i prefer it over there?] had 3 jugs but i oni drank

REALLY ABIT coz if mix cfm'll ko & i noe it best; DISASTER IN E MAKIN =)

stayed there til closed @ 0400 & while there:
got 'bio_ed' by 3 ts & 1 thai gal; v paiseh lor & v HAPPENIN!!! but not me haha im v 乖 1 altho im a SMALL BENG =p
& [i tink] i 'broke' my fav stripes specs; juz tinkin abt changin lenses now ve 2 change e whole spec if cant repair =(
den back 2 bencoolen eat prata den hm @ 0430+
immediate ko SNORE

muay thai #92

woke @ 1400
went in e rain
reached e gym oni 2 noe tt im 'red'
achin front & back

skipped, shadow, '4x' bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar w joy, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches, oni don came
stamina dropped alot man
e spars r good; more darin 2 kick & punch but i noe if its w sum1else other than joy i stil stand a v high chance of gettin thrashed

damn tirin & achin so i tink

I MUZ B CRAZY 2 TRAIN ON E '1ST DAY'!!!

muay thai #91

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 5x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches
can kick w e left leg liao but

im god damn tired

slowly got 2 pick up frm ware i left of...
sucha long journey...

muaythai against drugs 3

selection fights 4 mt world cup [bkk] @ jalan kayu seletar camp @ 220406

amatuer qualifyin rounds started @ 3 & terence, george & jj all made it in2 e finals

@ 1930 e finals kicked off
amatuers was a mix of pro & geared based on e fighters' consent 2 gear or w/o gear; our side was w/o gear:
terence - against jq again & he won altho he was quite shacked w painful legs; now he has elephant legs
george - against a fulang & he lost but it was a good fight, lots of improvements in techniques, stamin & movements but he got bits of his molar knocked out
jj - against a local who looked bigger than him but he was prac thrashed up due 2 insufficient trainin & stamina; ko_ed @ e 2nd round depressin man...

pros started @ 2230
1st fight was a GALS fight btwn a 28 yo thai gal w 62 FIGHTS under her vs a 16 yo local gal whichs her 1st fight
e thai's real good; v good techniques & v swift moves, e local altho young but she ve mt & boxin backgrounds so her punches r good
main event fight was zack vs a canadian, both e same age w v good techniques
zack got a cut above e left eyebrow frm an elbow & he nearly knee_ed e canadian in e head
howeva he won frm a high kick & ko_ed e canadian

congrats 2 all joe, joy & e fighters who won & lost coz e fights r real good w substance; all e trainins & downsizin paid off
makes me so gian 2 fight but den again... no 1 1s 2 fight sian

0900 ~ 0100

went 2 mit zjh 2 discuss e projs: 1 edu & 1 hr @ 2.5k
back hm 2 change den 2 e spa
rotted ard ard orchard & city hall
met alice, lynn & kk @ city hall
dinner @ suntec juz noodles
den bus_ed down 2 5/10; havent been there 4 6+ mths
drank 2 pints of heineken
ate a egg/cheese prata
cabbed hm
didnt tok much 2 alice; didnt feel like 2, y tok abt unhappy things tho i noe its troublin her


how old u tink she looks?
i noe my face's shiny but tts e spa facial cream not my face oil

got nagged @ e moment i reached hm:
FUCKIN SHIT!!!
I DUN GIVE A FUCK ABT WAT NEWS ON MISSIN PPL GETTIN RAPED OK
IM FUCKIN 22 SOON & YET I DUN GET E FREEDOM TT IM SUPPOSED 2 GET SINCE 16/18/21
DO I VE 2 REPORT 2 U EVERYTHIN & EVERYWARE I GO???!!!
GET A LIFE IF U R TOO FREE WHICH'S DEFINITELY TRUE
I NID MY BREAK K; DUN FUCKIN CTRL ME LIKE A LEASHED DOG
I NOE U R 'CONCERNED' BUT TTS FUCKIN CTRL K
IVE MY MIND I NOE WTF IM DOIN K!!!
ASS
& 4 FUCKIN SAKE DUN ACT LIKE U R SO 'LIBERAL' & 'OPEN MINDED' IN FRONT OF OTHERS WHEN U R NOWARE NEAR THERE; FAKO

muay thai #90

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar

but i didnt use e left kick durin bag & padwk xcept durin sparrin when 'instinct' takes over

techniques:
jab+x+block+jab+x+left hook
rite low kick+rite kick+left kick
jab+x+xtended x+left hook+rite hook
kick+2x kick
left block+rite kick

but now e left foot's painful =(
& a few ppl came back after a long time

muay thai #89 + 14 daes

2dae
returned 2 trainin; skippin nearly suffocated me, bagwk was miserable, padwk was juz as bad & sparrin got whacked w all e stamina & reflexes down & bruises appearin =(
guess ive 2 start frm sq 1 again sigh

heres wtf i did 4 e past 2 wks:

150604
back 2 e gym 2 'xchange' e shoes
ran 2km in 10 mins; 'proud' of myself since i flunked 2.4 @ 20+ mins in 04 =)
skipped 10 mins, den shadow, bag & 3x padwk w rat whichs considered lite as compared 2 e 1s joe does
met buckteeth @ hougang kbox, followed by 7 of her frenz
sang quite alot, drank abit of her frens' martell vsop [eh seems lyk e 1st time]
den left @ 0200+ coz they shut down e sys [supposinly close @ 0400 as written on e website =(]

140406
met thing & lynn @ queensway 2 get a pair of runnin shoes; got a pair of new balance @ 97/139 altho i didnt like it v much but nvm =went 2 bugis qb 2 cut my hair again; tis time its real short =)
okasan came hm & e 1st thing she said was 'y tis time u buy e shoes so SMALL???!!!'; i was like 'if i can get bigger size i oso 1 lor ASS' but tis pair stil ve space even w socks &'ll 'xpand' after wears; blame it on me havin small feet k???!!! HAPPY???!!! WTF

120406
back 2 another doc; hes an auth 少林鐵沙掌師傅 失敬失敬 =p
no bandage
跌打酒 4 self rubs
last review
clearance 2 train next wk =)

110406
8th ftt coz e 7th xpired
yes i noe ive drivin 4 1+ yr & i took it 7x liao & i can FUCKIN FLUNK IT!!!
retest on 300506
tried 2 train alittle but results were down; everythins down =(

070406
back 2 e old doc
rubs again
howeva walkin ard gets pains on e lower shin & rite side of foot dunno y
changed back 2 e old med

030406
back 2 e doc; another 1
says i walked too much =p
& he 'tapped' holes on e swell, put on a 'vacuumed' bamboo & 'sucked' out e stagnant blood; DAMN SCARY i tell u tho its painless
change of med

300306
went back 2 e doc
back 2 e rubs; stil painful

280306
hopped 2 e doc & its damn painful; he says its a v bad twist
hopped & 'limped' ard like a joke

muay thai #88

shadow, 3x bagwk, 2x padwk, 2x spar W/O SHIN GUARDS w ray, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

lotsa bruises frm e spars &...

FUCKIN TWISTED MY LEFT ANKLE!!!

when reversin twds e ropes >_<

v? long time since i last twisted it; tis left me momentarily 'paralysed' & its shoutin:

OUCH!!! SO PAINFUL!!!

muay thai #87

skipped, 3x shadow spar, 2x bagwk, 4x padwk, 3x spar, 1x grapplin, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

bruises surfaced, sparrin got whacked, grapplin got thrown; sumtimes its quite tirin not 2 c improvements but bruises, weeks after weeks w e form mizzin

i feel tt my arms, legs & body arent my arms, legs & body
i feel thrashed, battered, worn out & shacked

b4 trainin went back 2 mc w james 2 tok 2 ah meng & he agreed 2 give james a shot @ e proj which he'll b doin e interface design

hope its a good start 4 him =)

everytime i tok 2 ah meng theres bound 2 b inspirational & constructive stuffs comin outta his mouth; tis times no xceptN & it makes me tink further than ware i norm tink:

IT MAKES ME 開竅!!!

我不細心

after 1 CRAZY wk
got kokie 2 come down
bot e parts & fixed w james
managed 2 access e wd 40gb
managed 2 retrieve A BIG PORTION of files [lost abt ? of e mp3s]
lost e warez & mp3s saved in e ipod when installin e sw coz i selected 'config ur ipod now?' which i didnt xpect wld 4mat e ipod!!!
?*&^%$#!@

but aniwae e pc's fixed w a whole lot of new parts:
[gigabyte 915p-d + p4 2.66 533mhz fsb + seagate 200gb sata + kingston 512mb ddr2 533mhz + antec 430w ps + ares rad x300 pci-e gfx]
totallin $760 which i suppose'll last me thru e next 4< yrs

frm tis incident i realized tt im not tt meticulous coz:
1. didnt notice e screws on e mb & tried 2 'tear' it off e casin -.-
2. shld ve backed up on dvds tt r 99% fail-safe [which i was lazy 2 coz @ tt time it wld take 2+ hrs 2 burn 1 data dvd]
3. looked carefully @ installation options [else my mp3s & stuffs in e ipod wld stil b intact]
4. do more careful hw testin den 2 juz whine '救命阿!!!'
5. shld ve selectively copied e mp3s like how i did 4 my other files [else i wldnt end up w mp3s tt i 'dun' listen & lost those tt i do]
6. shld ve checked all other components b4 crashin everyware
7. not b a super big direction blur & traffic hazard
8. not 2 abuse my pc

however mother 'sponsored' $600 so its little paid by me; hopefully there'll b more projs 2 earn back e $

after e massive data migration & sortin, now its re-retrieval & catchin up w e 'learnin' 4 e projs

人往遠遠處看就不會那麼心痛; 一時的破產等於長久的安心
我的失去; 你的收穫

muay thai #86

skipped, shadow, 2x bagwk, tech spars, 2x spar w ray, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

tech spar:
jab+x+front sweep
jab+x+back sweep

e bruises r back & my rite foot'll not get well @ e rate tt im trainin but if i stop, e loss'll greater so wat do i choose?

tis's e worst day since e pc broke down on mon:

all my stuffs in e wd 40gb r GONE!!!

ALL MY MP3S
ALL MY TP N AIT WK
ALL MY CAT PICS
ALL MY MUM'S STUFFS
ALL ALL ALL
EVERYTHIN'S GONE & NOTHIN'S LEFT
AFTER 1 FUCKIN UNKNOWN REBOOT
AFTER 1 FUCKIN SCAN DISK
NOTHIN'S LEFT UNKNOWN
WINDOWS CANT LOAD ANYMORE!!!
FEEL NOTHIN BUT ULTIMATE ANGUISH W NO TEARS 2 FLOW
COZ IM TOTALLY TRASHED WHEN ITS OK WHEN WE LEFT

suddenly it seems ive learned nothin all these yrs;
pple say e pc's created by humans 2 help but mine KILLED me more than it helped

FUCK E TECHNOLOGY!!!

its worse than me gettin my stuffs cheated
its worse than me gettin van bonked
its worse than me havin my sch closed
its yrs of wk & data all gone in a flash

ITS E ULTIMATE WORST SCENARIO TT I NV TOT WLD HAPPEN!!!!

muay thai #85

skipped, warmup, shadow, 2x bagwk, 2x padwk, 2x spar w ray, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

padwk techs:
jab+block vs tap+elbow
hook vs block+uppercut elbow
block+kick+block+knee vs kick+block+kick

my rite foots gettin worse & my rite legs bruised #_%

dunno wats wrong w my fuckin pc
since mon nite when i tried 2 install e maxtor 300gb which didnt wk & put back e seagate 13gb
e pc went nuts; cant reboot, kip beepin, all sorts of errors
bot a 9250 gfx & a 4 port usb 2 [which e ipod rejects -.-]
called james down ytd & after so long when we were leavin, e wd 40gb managed 2 boot up -.-
but e rests stil not fixed; guess ve 2 do a major revamp tis time, cant escape changin e mb+processor+ram = $$$ fly away
prob'll get it fixed tis wk else cant cont wk 'safely'
hope can get e 13gb 2 run else all my stuffs inside r gone >_<

muay thai #84

skipped, warmup, shadow, 2x bagwk, 1x padwk, 1.5x spar w ray, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

padwk techs:
jab+x+uppercut+x
jab+x+2 steps fwd+jab+x
jab+x+2 steps bwd+jab+x
jab+x+2x rite knee
jab+x+2x rite knee+left knee
jab+x+2x rite knee+push+left kick

bonked my rite big toe area & tt hurts!!!
prob cant bend it up/down

went 2 shines 2 get my shorts frm benni
sotong & got e mrt stations wrong >_<

一覺睡醒就有work

a wakeup call tt spells JOB+WORK+$$$ & says LIFES BEAUTIFUL

woke @ 0930+ by a call frm a freelance contact
bot a ferarri red thumbdrive hope it wont die again
met e contact @ mac
met james 2 eat & pool
bot his 300gb hdd
walked ard
bot 3 comics
back him 2 start 'wk'
not as tuff as i tot; finished part of it now
more comin up
hope 2 get more projs + tis b long term + earn more + gain more xperience

flexibility + carefree = dun ve 2 give up trainin in e pm wahaha

integratin interests & wk but not ho hum; i ♥

how 2 b an early zzz_er & riser???

insomnia


zzz well


早起的鳥兒有蟲吃

went 2 zzz @ 0130+ in e end @ 0400+ im stil fuckin awake!!! changed position frm top 2 bottom, left 2 rite, leanin against e wall corners, pawin in bed, zzz lk a koala bear;

IM STIL AWAKE!!!

in e end woke @ 1400+; prob 10 hrs after i finally zzz_ed, after hammerin off my hp alarm x times sigh~

can sum1 tell me how 2 ko myself early @ nite & awake up early in e am???!!!

muay thai #83

skipped, shadow sparrin, 3x bagwk, 2x tech spar, 2x spar w wenling, 1x spar w lena, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 punchin crunches

tech spar:
dodge rite & left
2x front block + 1 uppercut block
2x front block + 1 hook block
leg grabbin vs push kick

got whacked quite alot durin sparrin
more & more bruises surfacin

been drinkin my banana+h20+milk & choco powder milkshake these 2daes
had apple+celery+h2o juice e other 2 daes
juz too damn lazy 2 eat em separately

got a call ytd frm recruitmentxpress @ 1500+ whilst stil zzz
had 2 jobs; 1's @ an army camp in e east w a 1 yr contract, another's a 3 mths web programmer contract in town w a $10 hrly [so a mth's abt 1.6-1.76k]
so i chose e latter & wait 4 shortlisted interview notice
played pool w james @ nite & won him 2x wahaha

muay thai #82

shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spar w lena, 60 pumps, 50 whackin crunches & 30 punchin crunches

durin padwk whereby i can use any moves, my rite foot/instep hit joys rite knee when usin e low kick, now its bruised & prob'll ve problems pivotin on wed >_<

sparrin wasnt too bad juz tt my counters & blocks nid ALOT more improvements
spd nids 2 buck up
stepped in 4 attacks
bruises surfacin

1 under_zzz & 1 over_zzz

yeah finally shes back @ e muaythai scene!!! 聯合晚報 reported her winnin a jap boxer in 3 rounds @ pattaya & shes goin 2 las vegas 4 another fight in june!!! woo luv her so much

b.o.r.i.n

sun
mr zhang called in e am 2 tell me tt there r tp slots in mar but i cant take em coz e god damn ftt xpired; damn wasted & mizzed >_<
woke @ 1600+
nua_ed @ hm

sat
back 2 e gym
back 2 e mrt on joe's bike; damn lot of traffic
met kokie 4 kogi @ starbucks
walked ard
ate 臭豆腐 @ e bugis pasar malam [not stinky tho]
e empress came back drunk & til 0400+ den zzz; now i noe y im a 醉貓

fri
went 2 e spa 4 facial & ear candlin
walked ard

muay thai #81

2daes trainins by joe

skipped, shadow, 9x bagwk, 4x padwk, 4x spar w ray, joe & lena, 60 pumps & 60 crunches

sweated alot
alot of techniques
punchin & kickin my guts out
kinda hungry now; ate 1 banana & mouthfuls of rice
fulfillin

gona kill e urge 2 munch like a hamster when slackin on e couch

muay thai #80

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2x spar w sasha, 1x spar w lena, 60 pumps & 80 crunches

abit tired
bonked my left big toe & now its bleedin & e nail'll drop in time 2 come boo >_<

suddenly e gals in e student class noe each other
suddenly e gals r tokin abt further studies after poly; local/flyover/longdist/schs
sumthin tt oni i did among those ard me

after tinkin abt u 4 a v? long time; whether i suit u, whether i shld get u, wat color shld i get u...
i finally got u 2dae in ORANGE!!!
& sumhow im luvin u more as every sec, min, hr passes by w u on me; so i suppose i didnt make a wrong choice in wantin u 4 so long: LUV U!!!

獨立 == 孤寂

DEPRESSION MANIAC

SO DOWN YET SO ALONELY

ROAMIN, SITTIN, ROTTIN, ZZZ ALONE

獨立的人也有想死的時候
獨立的人也有超低落的時候
獨立的人不需要依賴人
獨立的人也有想要個人陪

獨立 == 孤寂

bot a basketball
dribbled & shot ard
did sum conditNin
feelin alot beta now; my old fren helped me out when no others did
sports therapy helps

out

met up w zoohan, yolando, alex & james @ ms
had seoul garden; paid by alex which i feel v paiseh
after tt wanted 2 bowl but it was packed
so we left after waitin 4 awhile
went 2 paradiz 2 play pool

i feel v paiseh tt alex paid 4 us coz we r lk not close & its e 1st time we ask him out & he paid 4 dinner
pool wasnt tt bad juz tt im not in e mood 2 play

cant get over my flunk
lata goin back 2 e gym
den mitin kokie @ nite

flunked tp #4

after 2x circuit + 2 hrs prac i stil:

FLUNKED @ 38 PTS due 2 careless unnecessary mistakes nv committed durin pracs >_< 一切的一切又再前功盡棄, 化為烏有; effort + time + $$$ -.-

reali dunno wat e FUCK i did; everythin in e circuit went on fine xcept e e-brake which i dunno how e HELL i stepped on e clutch as well!!! oso dunno y i didnt stop @ e zebra crossin & y i didnt change gear after i stopped!!! can sum1 tell me wats a gd brake? wats early & wats late???!!! there were improvements frm e prev tests but its stil not enuf... mayb i was juz plain panic/nervous/unsure/inconfident; but its oso 'consolin' 2 noe tt sch dun GUARANTEE 1x pass coz sum1 failed, tink its all 事在人為 /..\ no amt of prac can help if u r a test panic attacker eg: ME!!!

all all all r plain CARELESS UNNCESSARY MISTAKES!!!
JUZ FUCKIN HATE MYSELF!!!

after tt went 2 bk my ftt coz it xpired & hopefully clear it ONCE so i can bk tp again!!!

went down 2 paya lebar 2 play pool w james [thx 4 comin out 2 play w me]
had my 星仔hk麻辣臭豆腐; not v stinky -.-
but den im a 豆腐 fanatic; soft, hard, dry, milk, cold, hot & STINKY all i LUV
im definitely diff frm norm pple: they luv durians but i ko @ em; they puke @ 臭豆腐 but i LUV em wahaha


juz wana get DEAD DRUNK 借酒消愁[愁更愁] 眾人皆醉我獨醒
drinkin my bourbon coke actually prefer vodka/gin tho but its sittin @ hm accompanyin me

muay thai #79

skipped, warmup, shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x padwk, 2x spar w joy, 50 pumps & 50 whackin crunches

punched &amp;amp;amp;amp; kicked w force; v motivated after mons trainin w joe
tink ve been slackin along e way

moves spd & flexibility ve 2 improve
mind & reflexes synchro oso ve 2 improve
alot more improvements 2 b done

had my mcdonalds chocolate MILKSHAKE!!! finally they ve returned after x yrs, stil taste tt great: THICK & not watery!!! dun ve 2 go jb & drink liao haha altho they r sinnin but they r 'rewardin' treats ^.^

一段稱得上真愛的戀情必須經過四個階段

必須經過四個階段，那就是：
共存(Co-dependent)
反依賴(Counter-dependent)
獨立(Independent)
共生(Inter-dependent)

階段之間轉換所需的時間不一定，因人而易。

第一個階段：共存。
這是熱戀時期，情人不論何時何地總希望能膩在一起。

第二個階段：反依賴。
等到情感穩定后，
至少會有一方想要有多一點自己的時間作自己想做的事，這時另一方就會感到被冷落。

第三個階段：獨立。
這是第二個階段的延續，要求更多獨立自主的時間。

第四個階段：共生。
這時新的相處之道已經成形，
你（你）的他（她）已經成為你(你）最親的人。　
你們在一起相互扶持、一起開創屬于你們自己的人生。
你們在一起不會互相牽絆，而會互相成長。

但是，大部分的人都通不過第二或第三階段，
而選擇分手一途，這是非常可惜的。
很多事只要好好溝通都會沒事的，不要耍個性，
不要想太多要互相信任，這樣第二、三階段的時間就會縮短。

和所愛的人相遇相戀是非常不容易的，不要輕言放棄。

兩人相聚是因為有緣，相知是因為有心，真的得好好珍惜這福份莫說分手不是無緣，

希望看到上述的四個階段，
真能給大家一些啟示与領悟并惜緣

我們會逐漸變成我們所愛的人。
你和他本來沒有相同之處，外表不相像，性格也是南轅北轍，一旦愛上了，年深日久，你會惊訝你的眼睛有點像他 的眼睛，他的微笑也有點像你的微笑。

你們走路的步伐也有點相似，說話的語气也愈來愈相像。他的脖子上有一顆痣，一天，你發現自己脖子上也多了一 顆痣，原來我們會變成我們所愛的人。

你本來喜歡腳踏實地的人，而他一向比較輕佻，但你們愛上了，他竟會不知不覺變成一個老實人，這個改變，連他 自己也不曾察覺。

他本來喜歡活潑的女孩子，卻愛上了拘謹的你，這些日子，你竟愈來愈活潑，你差點認不出自己。我們會逐漸變成 對方理想中的人，這种改變，

絕對不是刻意的。兩個人愈愛得長久，气質也愈來愈相近，你曾經以為他不是你夢寐以求的那种類型，然而，有一 天，你惊訝地發現，

他已經變成你喜歡的那种類型，你不必再到處尋覓，他就是你要找的人。

深深愛著一個人的時候，你原來真的會一點一點的失去自己，為甚么你還會覺得快樂呢？

大概是因為你在失去的當儿，也是賺了，你把他的气質和他的微笑都賺回來..

幸福很單純...
所以要很單純的人才容易獲得.....

在黃昏暖你的手就已足夠
很喜歡很喜歡。。。。。。希望大家都能走過這四個階段

drivin prac #29

2 gold toyotas cut my path 2dae damn em

an estima appeared outta noware when i was changin 2 e rite lane
a corolla cut rite den left & 2 avoid it i steered left &amp;amp; hit e kerb; tink e sides either scratched or dented liao sumhow it doesnt bode well ><

2daes spd was rather fast but changed gears up & down

dunno hows e performance but hope it'll b beta on thurs

muay thai #78

skipped, warmup, shadow, 3x self_bagwk, 3x padwk, 3x spars, 50 pumps & 60 crunches

& im god damn BUSTED

2daes trainin was by joe & i finally noe how i managed 2 down 6kgs in 4 mths last yr;

coz joes trainins v XHAUSTIN; really pushes e HELL outta u

1st spar w lena: her rite hi_kick hit my ear/head
2nd spar w joe: whacked e hell outta me
last spar w don: whacked e shit outta me

my guards r real shit; not tough/hard & fast enuf
counter aint tt gd too
tink i slacked alot when trainin w joy hmm

i fore_see myself achin & crackin tmr ><

drivin prac #28

3 mths since i last drove
omost went up e kerb
banged down e parallel parkin back poles 2x
head & hand synchro diversN
rolled backwards on e slope
stopped in e mid of noware
omost hit others
bad spd ctrl

another prac on tues
another circuit on thurs
4th tp on thurs

not much confidence >_<

HELP!!!

after prac went back 2 e gym 4 e seminar
cammed & vdo_ed

back hm 2 eat my 愛心 porridge & steamed eggs

muay thai #77

woke @ 1100

went 4 a 'run' spannin 1.6km & omost died -.-
skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 2x padwk, 2x spar w sasha, 50 pumps & 80 crunches
had sum user profiles w e outside xp pc >_<

had supper w joe, rat, joy & samransak @ e ecp hawker
den rat sent me back

愛

單身，有時不一定是貴族。
單身也許會比較自由，但自由也有一個同義詞，叫作寂寞。
因為人不是什么時候都喜歡一個人獨處的；
有時好東西需要跟人分享，有時候難過需要人安慰。
單身貴族產生的原因，是因經濟上的獨立、人格上的獨立以及感情上的獨立。
獨立是什么？獨立是需要而不依賴，一個獨立的人需要异性，而不依賴异性。

做情人之前，她應該先是朋友。
她成為你的朋友之后，出現在你的生活里，才有可能認識你、了解你、知道你的長處而對你產生好感，進一步發展感情，變成情人、對象。
世界上的顏色并非只有白色和黑色，黑与白之間還有很漫長的灰色地帶。
只要多相處，便能發現對方的优點、產生好感，這才是發展感情的自然過程。
『一見鐘情』以及『從一而終』的感情是不切實際的，我們需要的不是這种不切實際而虛幻的感情。
有人形容跟异性交往，就好象在海邊撿石頭，大家都會撿喜歡的那一顆。
一旦撿到一顆你最喜歡的石頭，便把它帶回家去，好好對待它，因為那是你唯一的石頭。而且要記住，從此后不要再到海邊去。
（永遠相信，我已經找到最大、最美、最适合我的那一顆）。

跟异性交往最重要的不是他有多好，而是他對你有多好。
一個人如果條件很好，有一百分，可是這一百分之中，他只給你三四十分，或一二十分；相反地，另一個人也許只有七八十分，可是他卻是全心全意的對待你【你，那你應該選擇那一個？
其實，每一個人的條件都是一樣的。不管你有多好，都還有人比你更好。
你雖然做不到一個『最好的人』，可是你卻做得到一個『對對方最好的人』。
每一個男孩子都可以說：『雖然我不是世界上最好的男人，但我是世界對你最好的男人』。反過來女孩子也是一樣，這是每一個人都做得到的。
感情最重要的是在于他對你的好，而不是他自己有多好。
但是如果有一個人本身已經很好了，對你又是真心真意，真心愛你，那么你真的可以把一生托付給他。
現在女性考慮婚姻的唯一條件，應該就是你愛不愛他，他愛不愛你，是不是真心真意對你，跟他在一起會不會有壓力，會不會快樂，而非他有什么！

人間的真愛是很難得的。
在人的一生中，很難找到一個你真正愛，真正可以跟他過一輩子的人如果你怯于表達，或害怕會有什么事，錯失一輩子可能只有一次的真愛，那就太可惜了，所以一定要采取主動，把心里的話說出來。
如果一個男孩子因為女孩子對他采取主動而看不起她，那么這個男孩子不是男生，而是畜生。
更何況，幸福比面子重要，如果犧牲一時的面子可以換得一生的幸福，是非常值得的，勇敢把心里的話說出來，不要隱藏自己的真心。
千万別說緣份未到，其實緣份到處都有，但卻是稍縱即逝，如果『緣』不及時把握，那就沒有『份』了。
大多數的女性對感情是偏重于精神，男性則偏于物質。
男孩子除了對女孩子殷勤体貼外，也要學會對女孩子負責任，要將對天下所有女孩子的殷勤体貼，全部用來對一個女孩子。
另外剛毅木納并不能討女孩歡心，所以要學習對女孩子甜言蜜語，多說好話。
男人，為性而愛；女人，為愛而性。

一個維持起來輕松、愉快的感情容易長久！
一個維持起來艱難而痛苦的感情不易長久，這時后就應該有所選擇。
我們都是凡夫俗子，要的是平凡而幸福并且快樂的愛情。
對所有的感情而言，過程遠比結果重要。
為什么？因為所有的感情都是沒有結果的。什么是結果？結婚嗎？
結婚之后就過著幸福快樂的日子嗎？可見我們不以感情的結果來評斷它的价值感情也不以時間的長短來論定它的价值。
對感情而言，凡是發生過的都存在，凡是存在過的都有价值。
世界上的感情每一段、每一分、每一秒都是值得珍惜的。
婚姻是人生里最大的一場賭局。
在這無限長的時間里，我們還要互相呈現最丑陋的一面給對方看。
婚姻和戀愛不同的是：戀愛可以花二個小時打扮自己，精神奕奕的向對方獻殷勤、体貼，輕松完成任務。
可是婚姻就無法隨時維持高亢的狀態。
所以，婚姻是一場大賭注，需有万全的准備、周詳的計划、十足的信，然后再去押它一把，即使是這樣都還有可能輸掉。
因此如果在賭之前，就知道自己不是心甘情愿、不是很愛他、并不想跟他過一輩子，那么這一場賭注注定是要輸的。
千万不要為了愛情之外的任何一個理由結婚。
感情的可貴不在于可從對方獲得什么，一方面是一种被依賴、被需要的感覺。
有人依賴我，需要我，我會得到滿足。

面對感情，我們所要采取的就是三不政策：
第一是不急：不要急著結婚。
結婚雖然是很美好的事，但是不要著急，該是你的就是你的。
第二是不怕：不要害怕付出。彼此必需一輩子努力，才能把感情維持好。
你不可能『得到』一個美好的感情，你只能找到一個你心愛的人來共同經營、造就、完成一段美好的感情。如果你沒決心做好男人，那你就得不到好女人。
世界上沒有一個坏男人會有一個好女人，坏男人只會有可怜的女人；同樣的，也沒有一個坏女人會有一個好男人。
何況感情中還有一個跟我們共同努力、想把它做好的人。
這個合伙事業成功的机會是很大的，關鍵就在于你是否愿意努力、付出而已。
第三是不要放棄。
當你受了打擊、挫折、傷害，當你感到灰心、失望時，有一個人無條件的，永遠
站在你這一邊，支持你、鼓勵你、安慰你，讓你重新站起來面對這個世界這個力量，是再親的父母不能給我們的，是再要好的朋友也不能給我們的，只有在人生的旅程中所找到的心愛的伴侶，才能夠給我們。
其實愛情是人生唯一的、真正珍貴的；也是唯一的、真正值得追求的東西。
只要你有一個心愛的人，你就有了原動力，你就能面對全世界。

v-dae

e last 2 [buttered bbq shrunken] prawns; e best thing's u can eat it WHOLE includin e SHELL [sounds nuts] but I GOD DAMN LUV EM LK TT!!!

went 2 m.sq lookin 4 food w kk, ah gal & seth; ended up everywares q_in @ 2000+!!! w couples hand in hand -.-
xmas & ny were lk tis; v-dae oso lk tis, wth???!!!
in e end we went 2 m.south & had chong pang bbq+steamboat. threw in alot of stuffs: chix, beef, crabs, hotdogs, prawns, fish/sotong/cuttlefish balls ['bloated' 2 real BIG BALLS], crabstix, taupok, tauhu, kangkong & corn
e prawns above r my FAV, ate alot & kept me lol whole nite wahaha
yelled quite abit when we were bbqin coz e butter was poppin on me -.-
was eatin my prawns happily til ah gal said: prawns make u horny & u c ah joy's lol non_stop; wonder isit prawns make pple horny or horny pple like 2 eat prawns??? hmm ?_?
ate til i was damn bloated & its so 造孽 >_<
rushed 4 e last bus & train den cabbed hm

tts my v-dae tis yr; not v entertainin yet not tt borin

muay thai #76

zzz @ 0500+, woke @ 1300+

2dae was packed w 8 pax; 1/2 full hse

skipped, warmup, shadow, 5x bagwk, tech spar, 1x lite spar w sasha, 50 pumps, 50 whackin crunches & 30 leg throws

techniques:
rite kick+ left out-blk + in-blk
left leg grab + rite x
left leg grab + rite x + 1 step + left low kick

sumhow sumthin was missin; dunno wats it

tmrs v_dae & im alone as usual boo~

joe sent me back 2 e mrt on his bike!!!
last sat on a phantom 2 yrs ago & a dna now til dunno when
bikes aint tt dangerous but its kinda airy haha

garfield & spiders; wish i cld do tt 2 e 小強s @ hm wahaha

muay thai #75

lunch_ed @ paradiz w zoohan, james, suhendry & yolando
pool after tt & won a few wahaha

was late 4 trainin but skipped, warmup, 1x bagwk, 4x 10x kicks, 20x jab+x, 3x spar, 50 pumps & 80 crunches

sparred w lena & joy; whacked as usual even tho i noe there r many countermoves but none of em came out as usual

e pc's finally back after 1 MTH; so damn long -.-
boo~ & i MIZZED it so much

things r tumblin/floatin in my mind but they seem so vague or m i e vague 1?

12生肖的故事

很久很久以前，還沒有日曆和月曆，大家都不知道怎麼計算年份，於是去廟裡拜拜，請求玉皇大帝幫忙。玉皇大帝聽了人們的話，也說：「咦！對喔！人們怎麼計算年曆呢？應該幫大家想個辦法。」他想了很久，終於想到一個好主意。他說：「動物和人類非常要好，如果用動物來代表人間年份的話，非但大家容易記得住，而且也很好用。我就叫動物來比賽渡河。最先到達對岸的十二種動物，依抵達順序排列下來，作為年份的名稱。」

這個命令發佈以後，森林裡的動物很高興，大家鬧哄哄地商討著關於十二生肖比賽的事。

那時候的貓和老鼠像親兄弟一樣，關係非常密切，時常在一起吃飯睡覺。當他們討論到這個問題時，聰明而奸詐的老鼠心想：「如果能夠當上十二生肖的第一名，不知道有多好！可是不會游泳，怎麼渡過河去呢？」這時同樣不會游泳的貓剛好拼著頭想出了一個主意。牠告訴老鼠說：「我有一個法子。水牛大哥很喜歡幫助別人，請牠幫我們渡河，牠一定會答應的。」

比賽的日子很快就到了。那一天早上，公雞還沒有睡醒，水牛已經來到河邊。貓揉揉眼睛站了起來。老鼠也伸了伸懶腰，還站都站不穩。水牛看了笑一笑，蹲下身來說道：「瞧你們這樣迷迷糊糊的！都爬到我的身上，我帶你們一起過河吧！」牛背上又寬大又溫暖，貓和老鼠一起爬到上面去，牛載著牠們，開始過河。

水牛渡河的時候，奸詐的老鼠心想：「假如我們三個一起渡河，前三名一定是我們的；可是不行呀！我一定要排名第一呀！」於是牠在水牛快渡過河的時候，虛心假意地靠到貓的身邊說：「貓哥哥，那頭的雲好漂亮呀！」貓一分神，老鼠一推，把貓推到河裡去了。

水牛並不知道牠的背上發生了什麼事情。老鼠看到不會游泳的貓掉到水裡去，好得意地喊說：「牛大哥！快呀！我們快到了！」然後，牠很快地鑽進水牛的耳朵裡去。當水牛快要抵達終點的時候，老鼠從牛耳朵裡跳到牛前面去，首先上岸，所以老鼠得了第一名。而水牛則是第二名。

過了一會兒，老虎全身濕淋淋地游了過來。牠很自信地以為自己一定會得到冠軍，結果玉皇大帝說：「你太慢了，只得到第三名。」

兔子也趁著別的動物過河的時候騎在牠們的身上，得到第四名。但是因為兔子跑得太快，嘴唇被樹枝劃傷了。所以一直到現在，牠的嘴巴還是好像裂了一半似的。

第五名是龍。因為牠跑到南海去降了一場大雨，雷聲打得太響，把牠自己的耳朵給震壞了。我們現在稱呼耳朵聽不到聲音的人為「聾」子，就是這麼來的。

接著，一條大蛇從草叢裡鑽了出來，得到第六名。可是因為牠跑得太快了，把腳給跑斷了，所以現在的蛇都沒有腳，只能在地上爬行。

第七名是馬。過了沒多久，羊、猴子、雞也都趕到了。其中第八名是山羊，牠先在河邊和猴子、雞相遇。牠們恰好看到河裡有原木漂流，於是一起跳到原木上過河。

過河的時候，猴子坐在中間。因為牠在木頭上坐太久，把屁股坐紅了，所以現在的猴子屁股都是紅紅的。

雞原本有四隻腳，但是渡河的時候，兩隻腳被原木壓斷了，所以現在只剩下兩隻腳。

調皮的狗也慢慢地游了過來，牠的游泳姿勢好像在洗澡一樣。

豬也慢慢地過了河，一上岸，就一直大聲喘氣，好像在說：「累死我了！累死我了！」牠得了第十二名。

muay thai #74

saw joe's bike [its a ferrari red gilera dna 180; part of e vespa family & kinda rare here w abt 20 runnin abt] when i reached but wont b on it til he gets used 2 it -.-

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 6x padwk, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches + 30 punchin crunches
really sweated out alot since e binge-in durin cny; so 造孽 T_T

den went 2 bj 2 mit xl & 38/kad juz boomed in front of me -.O

happy chinese/lunar/moon new yr 2006

2 summarise in 1 word how i spent my 6 days of cny:

B.O.R.I.N

cny day 4 [010206]
woke @ 1300+
rot @ hm

cny day 3 [310106]
zzz @ 0500+
woke up @ 0900+
went over 2 rb's in e am
rotted e way back
finished watchin 2.5 hrs of 7劍 & i LUV it!!!
zzz @ 2100+
& so fast jans over

cny day 2 [300106]
woke @ 1300+
nua @ hm
ppl flooded my hm
out 2 hmv den pool w james & i BEAT him 5 GAMES!!! wahaha

cny day 1 [290106]
indulged in chips & strobe black
colored hair gold
tidied room
zzz @ 0500+
woke @ 1300+
went 2 visit ah ma
nua @ hm

cny eve [280106]
did up e ipod
zzz @ 0500+
woke @ 1500+
dinner
slacked @ hm

fri [270106]
woke @ 0700+
went back 2 e gym in e am 2 spring clean
lunch @ golden mile w joe, joy & rat
dinner @ ms cartel w james, zoohan & henry
pool @ snookerium w james
ipod frm james

i dunno y ppl says it SUX!!! but i LUV it!!! its been a long time since i last saw a martial arts movie w NO cg/se; juz PURE REAL chinese 功夫 & actN; lk e old sch or 80/90s made-in-hk martial arts movie, especially by 徐克, so nostalgic & everythin's 真功夫 ^..^
楚昭南 [donnie yen]'s so damn 帥 w his long black 'flyin' hair ^..^

lost...

lookin @ those trainin w power, life & energy
lookin @ myself train w/o power, life & energy;
i seemed 2 ve lost myself,
strayed wayward frm ware i started out @,
wanderin off_track...

sumware along e way i lost my vigor 4 muaythai;
trainin 4 e sake of trainin,
trainin juz 2 downsize
lost my power & stamina...

put myself down when i didnt do well,
did nothin actively 2 rectrify it,
juz mellowin -vely

i started muaythai 2 fulfil my luv 4 martial arts,
luved its flexibility,
luved its sleek & lethal moves,
luved its life & vigor on e ring...

bit by bit i got em
but lost myself...
gettin whacked in e ring,
coz i CANT SEE wats in front of me,
coz i CANT APPLY wat i already noe in e ring fights

i simply sux;
bagwk, padwk, sparrin...
so how e HELL m i gona FIGHT in e ring???!!!
definitely not goin up 2 b a clown or punchin bag;

IM GONA FIGHT!!!

muay thai #73

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 3x spars, 60 pumps, 80 crunches & misc conditNin...

2.x w joy & 1x spar w don ^_^

new techniques:
usin e leg 2 throw
usin e knee hit after grabbin opponent's leg
liftin e opponent leg high
usin e in-out kick

got hit lk nutz, got cornered lk a mouse, mizzed stationary targets, punches & kicks no power, reflexes slow;

all in all: I SUX!!!

how e hell 2 fight???!!!

muay thai lvl4 #20

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 35 leg throws...

2.5x w ray & 0.5x spar w joy ^_^

cldnt c e punches & kicks thrown @ me; mayb its my hair downin me -.- sparrin howeva was...

FUN & INTENSE!!!

internet security

BLOODY FUCKIN HELL!!!

sumtime last yr 2 download real player, i 'signed up' 4 e superpass which i CANCELLED after e 14 dae trial which apparently didnt notify tt its over & ask u if u wana PAY!!! i got billed 1 mth on my card tho; so i

DISTINCTLY, DEFINITELY CANCELLED IT!!!

& checked tt i no long subscribe 2 it & its not reflected in my a/c w em!!!

yet mths til now i stil get billed sgd15 MTHLY amountin sgd100!!!

+ 2 other 'merchants' [1's YAHOO!!!] which i DIDNT VE ANI transactNs w em!!! [stil pendin tho]
so much 4 e 'free xx daes trial & we'll ask if u 1 it' shit...
now my card's cancelled til i get my new # & e bank's goin 2 chase after real
howeva after readin e note tt came w e statement which states tt im 2 report erros w/in 14 daes else e bank'll deem e statement as correct oops... meanin tt my claim mayb unsuccessful >_<
tink i shld check my statements faithfully & not ve ani bankin transactNs overseas xcept local

E INTERNET FINANCE SECTOR'S NV SAFE!!!

rs vs intimacy

Notice that the Heart Line is long and curved up well under the middle finger. A person with this long curvy line can be happy one minute and down the next, and it may not be due to whats happening in the relationship. Emotions fluctuate from moment to moment and run the full psychological range at any time. Each moment is separate from all the others and has its own emotional charge. A relationship with this person can be like a high speed emotional elevator. If he or she is emotionally "down in the basement" don't worry. Very soon the mood will dramatically change and shoot up to the top floor where the party is. The psychological mood changes come and go like the ocean tides and that keeps a relationship interesting.

The Expressive type person with this curved line ending under the middle finger lives in the practical "now". The future is tomorrow and is too far away to worry about. What is happening right now is the most important thing. This nearsightedness tends to make everything at the moment seem more important than future events and activities. Planning for tomorrow's activities are not part of this person's routine today. This often leads to problems in the future but that just insures lots of activities tomorrow and keeps life interesting!

The Expressive person is reactive, demonstrative and rational. She or he can devote full attention to enjoyment of all the senses. This may seem self-indulgent to others but at the same time they are envious of someone who can live and enjoy so much in life. If the middle finger is straight and strong, this Expressive person is not likely to get involved in taking care of other people's needs at the expense of her or his own needs. The Expressive type person is more "me" oriented than the Nurturer type with a Heart Line ending below the index finger (The Nurturer would be more focused on pleasing the partner).

Some words that are often used in psychology to describe the Expressive person are exciting, dynamic, unpredictable, alive, real, vivacious, intense, energetic, and active. A relationship with an Expressive type person is a wild ride!

noe urs too

chicken little says: E SKY'S FALLIN!!!

joy little says: E WORLD'S SHRINKIN!!!

peroration bscit

finali i got all my grades 4 e 10 units;

2 hds + 6 ds + 2 cs

1 d was unxpected; xpected p/c
durin tis 1.5 yrs alot of things happened
had diff classes w diff pple
gained new knowledge
met new pple
new perspectives & insights
too much 2 desc tho
but its been fulfilin

aniwae its over & done w;

back 2 a 失業皇帝 again!!!

bsc in luv

after daes of storm, e sun's finali out w clouds ^_^

thy astro chart

Rising Sign is in 02 Degrees Leo
You love to be the center of attention and you want to appear strong, confident and dominant. You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! Very dignified and honorable, you enjoy the power and privilege, but not the responsibilities, that come with leadership. You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Others impress you only if they have integrity (but wealth, power and influence can also turn your head). You prefer rich, elegant surroundings and possessions, and will try to acquire them as your budget allows. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff!

Sun is in 21 Degrees Taurus.
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.

Moon is in 10 Degrees Libra.
Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work -- you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project -- you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.

Mercury is in 27 Degrees Aries.
Very quick-witted, you are known for being an independent thinker. You love to debate and argue, and are excellent at repartee and battles of wits. At times, however, you act too fast on hastily formed opinions and thus waste a lot of energy defending your rash and sometimes incorrect conclusions. It is perfectly acceptable for you to defend your beliefs with your usual vigor, but try not to take the opinions of others as personal insults.

Venus is in 12 Degrees Taurus.
You are known to be a warm and affectionate person, and you tend to form long- lasting attachments. The reverse of this is that you can also be quite possessive once you have made a commitment. The beauty, luxury and comfort of your surroundings are important to you and you will devote much time and energy to making your home just right. Beware of your tendency toward self-indulgence, especially with respect to eating incorrectly. You also need outside stimuli to get you in gear When things come too easily for you, you can be lazy and indolent.

Mars is in 20 Degrees Scorpio.
Your likes and dislikes are strong and intense, never casual or superficial. You are known for your persistence and willful obsession. Once you have decided on a course of action, you are unstoppable. Your emotional actions tend to be extreme, although you try to keep them muted. You are not quick to anger, you do slow burns. And you tend to release your anger as sarcasm or irony. Beware of your tendency to hold grudges and to be vengeful. When you do fight, or release your internal tensions, you do so body and soul -- you become totally passionate and your outbursts are awesome to behold.

Jupiter is in 12 Degrees Capricorn.
You tend to feel that the only results that are worthwhile are the results that are concrete and demonstrable. You distrust abstract solutions and appreciate measurable achievements. An excellent organizer and planner, you are optimistic as well as practical and realistic about what can and what cannot happen. Very responsible, you consider it a personal weakness to be wrong about anything. This makes you appropriately cautious. You are very efficient but you tend to be cool and detached.

Saturn is in 12 Degrees Scorpio.
You tend to release emotional energies only very reluctantly. This is partly due to your fear of what horrible calamity might occur should they be released -- your emotions are terribly complicated and intense. Try not to repress these energies entirely, however, or you will succumb to negative and destructive forms of compulsive behavior. Give yourself the freedom to look awkward or silly once in a while. The relief you feel will be quite therapeutic and the embarrassment (whether it is real or imagined) will pass quickly.

Uranus is in 12 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 01 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 00 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 06 Degrees Gemini.
You will consciously seek out many different contacts with others throughout your life. Many of these will be of very short duration, not necessarily because you're fickle, but just because you always seem to be more excited by the prospect of meeting someone new rather than prolonging your present relationships. At any rate, you will learn something new from almost everyone you come across -- intellectual stimulation is what you crave from others. You will be well known to neighbors and relatives, partly due to your curiosity about what they're doing -- you delight in keeping up-to-date about the latest news (and gossip).

get urs here

muay thai lvl4 #19

skipped, shadow, 4x bagwk, 2x tech spar, 3x spar, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 35 leg throws...

did a hi-kick when sparrin w joy & got 'thrown' by his low-kick -_-;;; actuali high kick requires e other leg 2 b stable in case it misses e opponent & he throws a kick...

other den tt trainin was quite gd, juz tt im tired & wasnt in e mood 2 train..

homo sapiens firewall

y pple set firewalls on others?
y pple reject others?

i do reject sum pple on certain basis tt r 'harmless'; it doesnt affect me in aniwae when i boot em outta my life but i take it as they xist due 2 connectNs

but sum set up e fws 4 reasons unknown 2 others [oni known 2 emselves] & block all 'invites', pple outta their lives; they juz 1 2 b seclusive or elusive & oni open 'ports' 2 certain pax

but when a person sets a fw on another, wateva tt person says it'll b immediate in-out 4 e other coz they ve 'rejected' all 'communicatNs'; 2 em its nothin, tis's even worse when its duplex;

no way can ani communicatNs occur whether w hubs, switches, routers, bt, irda, wlan 11/54/108, wap, gprs, 3g, 56k, bb, cable, t1, t3, fiber optic, cat5, coaxial, wateva

howeva in e edu world, doin tis'll oni land urself in shit; often docents 'perceive' students understand when they dun qn & students dun qn 2 'save time' or mayb lazy. in e end theres no active communicatNs & it juz dies down -_- mayb lecs shld b more interactive, colorful, entertainin instead of dead reads frm e slides

juz sumthin on communicatNs based on an event tt happened 2dae

either e world's gettin colder or pple r gettin colder

muay thai lvl4 #18

skipped, shadow, 3x bagwk, 3x 5 mins padwk, 3x 5 mins spars, 50 pumps, 50 crunches & 30 throw crunches...

did 2.5x spars w ray den 0.5x w joy...

now tts called 'SPARRIN'!!!

blithe neoteric yr

@ e gym: wked, rained & trained
@ ms: saw my 'dear' cousin, hide & seek, food huntin, snooker & bowl waitin
@ paradiz: pool & alcohol
@ dhoby ghaut mrt: mizzed & chose 2 miz e trains
@ bugis: waited 4 cabs, called 1 & back hm

tis new yr's indeed v quiet w oni 1 person w me: james ^_^
thx 4 spendin it w me; e last 4 hrs of 05 & 1st 3 hrs of 06

drank little; 1 nite orange [tasted lk f&n orange] & 1 white strobe


last sunset of 2005